Monday, September 11, 2006
hey!!! im back!!! back for more..!!! haha....hhmm..kinda lazy to blog past few daez...hhehe....stress wif sch arhx...haha...AT LAST!!! biz fundamentals is over!!! yey!!! lets party!!! haha...bt too bad...there's still accounting...nvm..after dat...HOLIDAES!!! woohoo!!! hhmm...d biz paper dis morning was actualli VERY EASY if really study d subject...well...can larhx...wat i studied come out...hopefully can pass... =D hhmm...juz finished ma solat isyak juz nw n mummy was starting her solat...wen she told me dat she saw ma aunt earlier on...den she talked abt her daughter of having a bf...n sae.."ppl cum from d same instituition dats y date each other"...den i said "NO!!! ma frenz haf bf from poly n even UNIVERSITY"...n she still WANTS TO WIN N SAE..."AS IF D GUY WANT D GAL"..i was lyke WTF!! she said DATS WAT PPL SAE...n i raise ma voice..."DATS WAT U THINK N NOT OTHERS...N U ALSO LOOK DOWN ON STUDENTS LYKE ME!!!" den she suddenli bcame silent...so damn frustrated... "aru solat...dh buat dosa wanie"...hahaha....otw to macdonald,saw ma beloved nanny wen i was in d bus n she was walkin home from d pasar...carrying heavy stuffs...poor nanny...miz her lots..eventhou she condemned ma mummy lotz...bt i still ma nanny lotz...really poor thing lar ma nanny...BUSU!!where were u?y u let nanny go pasar on her own?she's old u noe...haizz...wats happenin ard me man??...studied AFD at macdonalds wif wanee n nisah...also ate breakfast there...YUM YUM...long tym neva ate breakfast there...haha...den do AFD...hhmm..supposed d waniez are to teach nisah...bt at d end...nisah go dreamland...n d waniez teach each other...HAHAHA....after sometimes both of d waniez stress out n G.I.V.E..U.P. MUAHAHAHA!!! aniwae....got bad hair dae everydae...dunno wen ma hair will b in proper manner...haha...den go home dunno wat i do...wakakaka...IM CRAZY TODAY!!! haiz...im trying to make maself happy by smiling n laughin lotz...dis few daes were so damn down for me...so many things happen to me,fam,relationship,friendship...EVERYTHING!! i am caught btw taking care of ma permaisuri n ma responsibility as a student...if i neglect ma darling...daddy will nag at me...if i neglect ma studies...mummy will scold me upside down....haiz...wat shld i actualli do? IM CONFUSED! 2dae we gd terms,2molow bad terms den gd terms again...den bad terms again...i dunno wat dis actualli means...im juz tired of all dis small lil things....is it him or me? i guess its me....bt well...he said...if angry juz keep quiet..so these few daes i juz keep to maself n sms him as lil as possible...haizz...lost in confusion of life..."im really sowie...plz forgive me...i dun mind if u hate me"...wat is dis? onlie nw? sincere? i dunno..i juz go wif d flow...hey...do anybody noe y ppl alwaes put d blame on others wen dey are d one hu made d mistakes? aahhh!!! cant b bothered animore....I FEEL LOST N PATHETIC AS I AM PENNILESS!!! I NEED MA JOB BACK!!!....sobx..sobx...sobx...haiz...wen to ask for financial help ONCE again earlier on...i was so embarrassed keep relying on other ppl...i feel so hopeless n helpless....TO DADDY: im nt saying its ur fault dat i haf 2 ask for help here n there..but i am juz so embarrassed....u r fit to werk...bt y dont u? i really want to take care of u n mummy n gif u peepz a gd n comfortable lives...bt i haf to finish schoolin first...daddy...plz...spare a tot for me...plz...i cant take it animore....i can juz explode anitime....datz all i ask from u daddy....TO MUMMY: plz stop havin negative tots on me...plz...im nt dat bad thou....i ALWAES help u wenever u needed me..bt plz...im a human bein wif feelings....u haf 2 spare ma feelings as well...plz....haiz....dats all i guez...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=
