Thursday, August 28, 2008
went to work earlier on as usual...bt nxt wk new semester will begin...so no more full punch card for me...haha...work...work...work..and as usual...i was being extended..i so hate dat part...earlier morning there was a manager of a high ranking came down to our outlet to check out the new promo...stupid new promo...bt its nice! super nice! =Dthen wen there was no crowd...he came to me as a customer...because im d only counter dats open..i tot he just stand there..so i just smile at him...rupe2 nye die nk check aku out lar...bacin btl..he: "i want dis meal"..act like holding a coupon.me: "im sowie sir, that promotion is over. yesterdae was d last dae."he: "so?? dats not my prob! so, wat does have it your ways means when i cant get wat i wanted??"...me: just keep smiling and look away...SERIOUS SHIT! i dun noe hw to answer sia...haha...den ma manager come over..den its d end..haha....i brought along my clothes coz today's plan was to go to geylang to buy our outfits before ramadhan...den suddenly ma aunt cancel d plan...so ape lagi..wanie carik chance utk kluar...asked BF to go out wif me...hehe...so its been 2 daes straight i met him... =Dwent to ps...ate our lunch cum dinner...after dat we watch a movie...watch 4bia...okok ar d movie...bt wanna noe wat happen wen u watch a horror movie wif me?
dats wat happen if u watch a horror movie wif me..haha...dats BF arm after the movie...haha..in the theatre i clinch into him as if im d one being haunted...haha...kecian BF..ahaha...
den we went home... =) so...2molow's plan is to go geylang...den weekends will b working...den mon starts ramadhan and wed starts new semester...oh man! haha...
k lar...dat all...wanie signing off...
p.s: ajit..ur secret is out... =) wanee...now u noe d kononnye misteri passerby...haha...
=WaNie=
Labels: what's there for me?
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
last semester's result is out!!! and the class roster is out too...im glad dat i will be located at d same block bt only different level...ahaha...and im also glad dat at least i noe someone in d new class...yes...lucky me... =Dim surprised abt d gpa i got..its ma first semester and i can get dat kind of gpa..i dunno to feel proud of myself or not...my BF said, yes i should be proud..coz ITE and poly is different...my mum said dis.."asl sikit nah dpt point??"..haish...dunno lar...dats all i wanna blog.. =Dtake care bloggers...=WaNie=Labels: hope and pray hard dat i can stay lucky throughout the semester..pls Allah..
Monday, August 25, 2008
im crushed!
i hope u r happy and satisfied now!
i have nothing left!
=WaNie=
Labels: crying non stop...
Sunday, August 24, 2008
i am so sick and tired of blogging already...but it has been 2 yrs since i started blogging...i still want dis blog of mine to stay alive...bt im very lazy to blog lar sometimes...haha...there's SO MUCH anger in me...im angry at TOO MANY people at ONE TIME...and at this point of time..i do OWN a lot of gadgets...bt where are they?? NONE of them are wif me...BT! these people who took ma gadgets scold me for keep asking for ma gadgets back...WAT D F!!! and i still wonder why people out there are so ignorant and irresponsible?? they made the mistakes but blame others for their mistakes...and i also still wonder why these people have to be a part of my life...important people in my life somemore! linked by blood...linked by love and linked by friendship...fasting is just around the corner...and im scared to face it...y? coz im scared dat i will be fasting in vain...work has been tremendously tired...bt i have to presevere..because im not a rich man's kiddo...i aint get anything i want with just asking ma parents for the things...and i cant just wake up in the morning and sae dis..."ayah,ibu..duit...nk kluar."...since 3 yrs ago...i have been working hard to support myself and sometimes help ma parents...do i envy those kids that can easily get money from their parents like my cousins? sometimes...bt most of the time i tink they just make their parents headaches...i tink with all the scenarios ive seen in my life..ive grown to be more mature and try to improve on myself rather then troubling ma poor parents...y i said so? because last tym my family was quite affordable in buying stuffs...i can just easily sae.."ayah, adk nk tu...ayah, adk nk nie.."..and at that moment too my dad will buy the stuff i want...pampered werent i? ma elder siblings were more pampered...they do not have to work when they were schooling just to support themselves...bt its a different story for me..i worked hard in school..i worked hard outside of school..i worked hard to please my parents..bt does my family see all that?? i dun tink so...because...im being labelled as an arrogant by my brother just because i got higher qualification den him and sis...so, why did i work so hard?? i will just be labelled even worst wen i get ma diploma rite?? sometimes i just hate to work hard...it doesnt pay to work hard...really...if im really arrogant...i wont work at bk wich only pays me peanut! if im arrogant...i wont lend my gadgets to ma elder siblings!...if im really arrogant...i wont teach balqis the right ways eventhough she prefers to do the wrong things!...if im really arrogant...i wont be walking ard jp or even any malls with my parents who are old fashion!...if im really arrogant...i will dump my ITE friends! DO I DO ALL THESE???? NO!!!i do not know whether its jealousy or irritation dat makes them labelled me dat way...with the way they think of me..it just makes me stronger...i hope...."memaafkn seseorg itu lebih mulia daripada membalas dendam..."...saw this in a drama last nyte...i just its rite...bt can i do dat after ive been wrongly accused?? i will just let my prayers be answered then... =)yes..i noe my post is random...and i have always been blogging wif different things in one post..haha...everytym i blogged...i let my feelings do the work... =Dtill here then...=WaNie=Labels: thinking about others just make me sick and tired...
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
almost a week i have not post anything...
since i stopped blogging on d 14th..so i will just blog abt wat happen from 15 onwards aye...
15th august...followed ma sis to rebond her hair..AGAIN...like a dumbass sit there for hours...bt one thing ar...tk pernah aku dgr salon kasi customer die mkn heavy2..kakak aku dpt dat priviledge...haha...kasi meja skali u noe! haha...
after dat went home to get ready to meet ma BABES n HUNK...bt d plan was COCKED UP...ma blood was over 100 degree i can say...because of one the other also affected...bt d end we still meet up...BUT! we meet up in FEAR...FEAR of saying d wrong things to make matter worst...FEAR dat d other person will blow the anger towards us...easy said..we FEAR to face her...really sia..haha...wanie konon nye dulu gansgter terus jdk kecut! haha...bt thank god..nothing of dat sort happen...haha...
den we went off to marina ar...dat stupid bowling place another cocked up place! we couldnt get any lane coz there was a company's event going on...so we had dinner and head down to vivo for desert...haha...
nisah bought a small cake for d 5 of us and i dun like d cake dat much because got banana! yucks! bt! nisah...thx aurite! =D bought b n j ice creams as well...yummy! bt went it was mixed wif choco mint..yucks! haha...
den home sweet home...took bus from boon lay mrt...and fanah said dis..."eh...zaman bile ko naek bus? slalu nye jln kaki..."..haha...abeh nk bercerita dgn fanah..so naek lar kite bus same2..
16 n 17...work as usual...and being extended as usual...so sucky i tell u...on the 16 work was okok bahx..bt on d 17..wakao! i gt one customer who was so not satisfied...he ordered bt he still have to wait for his food...wen he couldnt take it anymore...he shouted.."WHERE IS MY FOOD!!! I HAVE WAITED HERE FOR SO LONG...!!!"...to make matter worst...i dunno how to handle dat kind of customer...dat was ma first experience beb...den ma manager took over...gedebak gedebuk...he throw his hashbrowns and drinks on d counter and demand for a refund...in d end...he did get his refund...bt yet...he still made a complain...not complain against me getting his food late..bt against ma manager...and yes...ma manager was called up to d HQ...i felt guilty n scared i can say...and since den till now...people keep asking me to explain wat happen...i was so stressed abt dis ok! smpai menangis nangis aku...
18...went out wif BF...1st stop: BBDC...change from manual to auto and ma BF was angry wif me for changing course...booked ma 3RD FTT...yes...ma THIRD time...it will be during the raya...please GOD do help me pass...at bbdc itself only i have already burn a hole in ma pocket...its true wen people said dat u need lots of money to take a car licence...i agree wif it 100%! after dat went to ma sch to submit a form to pay my next semester sch fees...bt den i got the wrong form..so it was a wasted trip...den tot of watching movie...bt all the timing in the evening..so we decided not to watch..den we went off to geylang!! wee!!!~~~ my nasi ayam penyet!!! we had nasi ayam penyet for our breakfast cum lunch...and i also had the chendol..it was a very long time since i last had the chendol in geylang man...mayb 10 yrs? like dat ar....den we went home...we were like stupid kids sitting at the mph waiting for d rain to stop...laugh non stop..doing stupid things as well...haha...bt went ma BF went back...i cried...dunno y...
19 and todae...work...and some colleagues were surprised to see me working..aha...and today is RJ last dae at work....im so going to miss him man...!! i tink i prefer to work on weekdays..better sia...morning not so many people...bt lunch there will be a huge bunch of hungy ghosts bt still managable...den ard 2 oclock not so many people again...i like it dat way man...if weekends...walau!! i cant even get to have my break till 2!! bueh tahan like dat...kalo bulan puase gitu...AKU PENGSAN DULU!! haha...
my ultimate plan was to leave u...so that u wont have conflicts with ur mother..so that ur mother wont say all those harsh words towards u anymore...so that u wont stress up abt choosing to please ur mum or please me...i know its hard on ur part....i rather be hurt and heartbroken all my life rather than u being treated coldly by ur own mother...its hard for me...really hard for me to leave u...bt dats d best choice....i guess...
bt now..the plan changed...i didnt have the heart to leave u...y? because the day i chose to tell u to just let the relationship go is also the dae u told me that u are sick staying at home and which to go far far away from home...i tink back..i dun have the heart to leave u wen u r in agony...u needed someone there for u..yes i noe ur cousin, bro and frends are there for u...bt there are only there wen it is regarding bikes...nt more than dat...will dey understand wat u feel? i doubt so...therefore, i chose to keep my ultimate plan...till...i duno when...i guess..till u r sick of me and tired of me...dat will be d best tym for me to ask u to bury dis relationship forever...gosh! im crying now.kk...stop it...haha
to that someone...ur apologies are accepted..bt the anger within is still there..im sowie if im throwing tantrums at u...i just so hate it wen im being cheated/duped or being lied at..yes i noe people do make mistakes...bt please...please think back wat u have done..do u tink people will accept ur reasons? i doubt so...oh well..u still my friend eventhough if u dun treat us like frends... =) to just let u noe...u r as important as they are to me...just think back and reflect aye.. =) anything just beep me up...i will always be there for u to look for...still loving u...
yizhen and gang....please do not forget dis old (as in the oldest among u guys) friend of urs... =)
=WaNie=
Labels: life have its up and down...and my life is in d middle..
Friday, August 15, 2008
Saw you walk in to the room, Thought I'd try to talk to you Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to It's been two years to the day half the time I've been away I know I'm not there enough, but that's gonna change 'cause I'm coming back to show you that I'm keeping the promise i made
When I'm with you I'll make every second count 'cause I miss you whenever you're not around when I kiss you I still get butterflies years from now, I'll make every second count when I'm with you
Yeah, we've had our ups and downs, but we've always worked 'em out Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now Still I'm lying here tonight wishing I was by your side 'cause when I'm not there enough, nothing feels right so I'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life
Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
=WaNie=
p.s.: do u ever feel ma fear?
Labels: when im with u..no one else matter....
Thursday, August 14, 2008
went for ma FTT AGAIN earlier on...i FAILED....AGAIN....i felt so fed up with myself...feel so useless...frustration was wat i felt from just now till this second.i cried after the test...i cried not because i failed...bt because i felt so damn hopeless and useless...im giving up already...i cant take it anymore arh..FRUSTRATED!!!!AAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!after the test went to jurong to watch money no enough 2...before going for the movie...waited for BF when he went to the toilet...i read his inbox msges...i came upon a msg received last nyte from his sister wen he was still at ma hse...last nyte wen he received the msg i didnt suspect anything...bt now i noe the reason y he leave a few moments after he received that msg...when we wanted to go off after the movie...i randomly asked him..."semlm balek kena marah?"...and den onli he told me d truth...i try to keep ma cool...i controlled my tears from rolling down....he said.."bkn salah u, sayang.."...i know...bt i felt guilty...wen we reached ma place u sense that there's something wrong wif me..."sayang, i knl u dh lame..i tau u keeping something from me...ape die?"...i kept a strong front and said.."mane ade ape2...tkde ape2 lar..."...quickly i said gdbye and walked off...and i cried...i've been thinking from just now about this...this wasnt the first tym it happened..it happened ample of times...i guess i really need to let loose...its not because i dun love the relationship...i love it too much dats y im doing this...i dun want u or her to get hurt...let me be d one who swallow the pill of hurt...she's more important than i am...im just an outsider who stole u from her...she's ur flesh and blood...i cant fight wif her...i dun wish her to hate me till the end of life...i respect her as an elder...no use making her frustrated because i will feel the pinch...im not the only one who realise her jealousy...bt ur siblings saw it too...how i wish im the guy and u r the gal... ='(right now i have to try to avoid u as much as i can...i will try to be strong for this relationship that we have built for d past 3 yrs...it hurts deep inside when i realise that jealousy is in the relationship...it hurts alot..really...but what can i do? i am in no position to speak..but i will just have to swallow every pain i get from this relationship...i will leave u wif her...i will try my best... =')arh! ma eyes are swollen...i need to get rid of these swollen eyes..im meeting ma BABES n HUNK 2molow!!! woohoo!!! cant wait! cant wait! =WaNie=Labels: will there every be an ending to this jealousy..
so fast 13 august has ended...and im already 20...can u imagine that? im already an adult...a REAL adult...
i really dunno wat else to say...am i happy being an adult? i dun tink so...i dun wish to grow up...really..i still want to be the mummy's gal..i still want to play in d playground...i still want to jump here and there like nobody's business...from the dae start...i keep receiving comments..."haha..dh tua...dh berumur..."..etc...it really hurts...i felt like there was an arrow just shot in my heart...
arh! just forget it lar...got another mini celebration just now..it was wif d fam and BF..
that's my birthday cake from BF..dh mcm cake tunang ehk dgn bunge2 tu semua...hehe..thx BF... =) bt i havent yet get any present..hehe...
aarh! 2molow FTT again...and i havent completed reading d ftt book...dunno can pass or not...going there alone 2molow..BF totally forgot abt it..and im kinda pissed off...its going to be ma first tym going there alone...gosh! im so dreadful to go there alone...haiz...
just now suddenly BF told me his family plan to go KL and he asked me along...cannot lar...i already told ma manager that i can work during ma holidaes..too bad he told me kinda late...oh well...
i so wanna a digi cam!!! im already attracted to one...bt im not sure whether i really need it or not...haiz...since early morning i keep thinking abt it...should i or shouldnt i???
haiz...i dunno wat else to blog...so..farewell people...hope 2molow will b a gd dae for everyone...including me... =)
nyte bloggers!!~~
=WaNie=
Labels: im 20...yes i am....need to accept it..
Sunday, August 10, 2008
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there was a mini celebration in class on fridae for us august babies...all thanks to yizhen...i was touched thou...i didnt expect anything like this from my classmates..i mean the close classmates ar..not the other clique....thank u so much....and tomolow still got another celebration!!! weeee!!~~~....cant wait! haha....dats all i wanna say....
im so happy to meet u darl...love u lots..
=WaNie=
Labels: happy birthday people....may all ur wishes come true..
Friday, August 08, 2008
it has been quite a long time since i last blogged...i wanted to blog bt i was just plain lazy ar....one moment u were loving towards me and at the next moment u give me d damn cold shoulder...what the hell is wrong with u???!!! really man...i tink u need a doctor!!! go and operate ur brain and nerves man!! i cant take it animore...if u tink that u going to turn out to be like my dad..den go ahead!!! den onli will u see what will happen to us...got it???? HOPE U GET IT! freak!!dis month im totally broke...really damn broke...pay is so little..due to the renovation...tot of buying new hari raya shoes and bag dis yr...tp musnah sudah impianku itu...haha! meeting ma BABES and a HUNK on d 15...cant wait...and at last! got d full grp...and mayb going out wif yizhen dey all to celebrate quek and ma bdae.. =) im touched..really...i thought no one in poly will ever want to celebrate ma bdae...bt i was wrong... =) thx yizhen..love u darling.. =Danniversary celebration was only a 20 min meet up wif him at ma sch canteen...haha...pathetic...oh well...at least got see him wat...haha...bt in d end he lost temper just because of a question i asked. gosh! how i wish i am a mute sometimes...work was okok onli last weekend...bt d customers really makes me crazy...its already 1130 still asked for breakfast!! wth! extending my working hrs will help me to earn more income...bt tired ar..sianx...and yes...recently i always get missed calls from someone i dunno...such an irritant..and now i dunno wat to blog anymore...Happy Holidae people!!! Happy National Day!!=WaNie=Labels: 20 is a BIG number...
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