Wednesday, June 10, 2009
i so want to study!!! bt there's always distractions and the mood aint there u see...urgh! and i have 3 papers to sit when sch reopens next week..damn! how? how? how????now...im also to distraught to study seh...with all the dramas that goin on in ma life...im just sick and tired of all these...really.wen i just let it be..there will always be things that suddenly came to ma mind...and the tears will start flowing....farhanah n mas also maybe become tired of listening to ma problems all the time..haiz...i dunno wat ma future will be like..i really have no idea...bt im just too tired to think anymore...regardless of studies or even ma life....i am so confuse dat i dunno wat is the next step i have to take...haiz...I WANT TO STUDY AND I WANT TO MOVE ON!!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!=WaNie=Labels: Allah, pls help me....im lost once again...
Monday, June 08, 2009
i am feeling so vexed!! and its all because of money...only now i understand y people take their own life due to money constraints....after calculating and putting aside money for the things that i NEED...im only left with peanuts till next month's pay!!! im so depressed..really...there will be no expenditure for the things that i want now...till..i dunno wen...i have to start saving already...for driving practicals and erm...the future... if by end of dis yr i cant save enough money, guess i have to forgo ma driving licence...haiz...and dis wed i have an appointment wif the cekik darah dentist...and dat will cost money again....the money dat i have been saving dis while need to be use for the appointment...haiz...the BF is also saving more starting from dis month....and there wont be any bonus for him seh....after deducting his expenditure every month and after putting aside an amount for savings, he also left peanuts...guess now i have to be more understanding..cant demand too much anymore...no more last minute movie plans...or even small cravings...being an adult is not easy huh??! urgh! BUT!! i need to be positive...need to tink the rite way! harap2 nie semangat tk stay utk 2 minute je ar..hahahhaa....how i wish money can grow on tree and dat tree is right infront of ma house..and the branches are just outside ma window..hhmm...come on guys! lets imagine it happening! haha....money makes the world goes round...and it also makes a building collapse wif just one blow!=WaNie=Labels: money...money...money....
Monday, June 01, 2009
the past one week has been miserable for...has been a very wet week for me...need lots of tissues indeed...bt thanks to ma gfs that was there for me...especially my dear dear fanah...and in sch my dearest lydia and mas....fanah was the one who made me laugh real hard....wen i was down she made jokes that make me laugh even wen im alone outside! =)) thanks babe...love u tonnes...wen the words were out...she was the first i contacted...only god knows how i felt...lydia was my advisor...both good n bad! haha...she was like saw wat happened..and straight dragged me out of class...in d middle of a class i tell u! dats d bad point..bt wen we were outside..fuuyohh! she advised like one kind of an experience advisor like dat....another bad point...SHE DRAGGED ME IN CABOT-ING CLASS TOGETHER WIF HER!! and in d end we all get a big fat F!!! shit i tell u...a shitty week! i so hate last week...as for dear dear mas...hhmm... =)) hehe...she's one sweet frend i tell ya...she gave me strengths, confident and always ask me to be tabah! and at times too she suddenly msged me...like dis, "aku tgh baring tetiba ingt ko.ko ok?"...i keep those msges in ma hp still...to remind me dat i have a frend that care... =)) how sweet can she be...well, i hope ma frenship wif her wont last only till the semester ends...i would like to be her friend always...even out of class...hhmm...ok! done with those shit...now lets talk abt ma teeth!! very d heart pain...2 weeks ago went to see a dentist after tahan-ing a week of pain...the dentist confirmed that my wisdom tooth that causes the pain...so, i need to go for surgery which costs $350 per tooth..and now u guys tell me where d heck am i going to get 350 at a very short notice rite? so wait another week coz i intend to use my dad's medisave to pay for the surgery. after a week, which is todae, i decided to just go for the surgery eventhough ive got cold feet! went to another dentist coz the dentist i went to earlier didnt accept medisave as a payment..so went to another private clinic which the surgery costs 450-600 per tooth..and guess wat? 2 of ma wisdom teeth need to be extracted...so roughly the dentist said $900-$1200 lar for both teeth...in d end the dentist claimed $1,100 from ma dad's medisave! we were shocked u see...2 teeth cost 1,100????! that is like daylight robbery lar seh...bt nvm...no more pain for me after dis...i HOPE AND PRAY lorhx...now ma mouth is still full of blood...i need to bite on these gauze for 2 long hrs! urgh...it taste disgusting seh..i mean the blood lar of coz..hehe...earlier on during the surgery, i didnt feel pain at all...even wen he was stitching up ma gums lar...bt the pain came wen he was injecting anaesthesia in ma mouth!!! wat the heck lar seh! the needle itself was super scary...ape tah lgk d pain..oh ma gosh lar seh! damn pain...really...there were tears wen he injected it in....throughout the surgery i just close ma eyes seh..haha...yar i noe im a scary cat...seram aku nk tgk die jahit lik gum aku...eehh!!! haahha....k back to the teary issue last week...hhmm...aint sure if i want to blog it out loud....hhmm...it just cut deep through ma heart...dats all i can say...till then..i will blog again...soon enough or wait even longer? either one...hehe..=WaNie=Labels: Allah is showing me the right path...Alhamdulilah...
