Wednesday, July 25, 2007
was involved in the ITE graduation ceremony...from morning till evening...d job was not tiring...bt d shoes dat i was wearing makes me tired..haha...d ceremony was long....MAHA LONG...! sempat aku tdo tym org2 kasi speech...wakakka...*ada chance ke tk aku dpt cert mcm gitu?*haha...berharap je lar...saw someone i knew from msn few years back...i was like..."eh nisah! aku knl lelaki tu!!"..haha...i was like dat coz he's damn cute! to me lar ehk..i dunno whether he still remember me or nt ar...bt i do! =D cant stop looking at him during d whole ceremony...muke die mcm manis gitu lar...sedap mate memandang...tu bab non stop tgk die *nie bkn mentel ehk namenye*...den wen we were otw to d bus stop saw him again!! he was wif his mum..we boarded d same bus n i was juz beside his mum n him. =D his mum smile at me. hehehe...bt i was thinking,ade benda ke kat muke aku? make up dh burok ke? in any case i smile to her back...courtesy lar kate kan...hehe...kerana terlalu gembira nmpak die n coz of dis damn irritating lady in d bus,AKU SALAH TURON BUS STOP! naseb baek dkt dgn central...kalo tk memang dh menyumpah kat pompan gendeng tu! after alighting,called ma bf coz he called me earlier on..i was shouting at d fone man! from d beginning till d end of conversation. ape nye tidak...aleh2 kol "oi! tgh buat ape?" ape lgk aku pn pekik ar "ape oi2! saje je!"...tp ini semua hanya rekaan semata mata n gurauan berkasih...no hard feelings towards each other...at d end of d conversation he said, "u,bye je?" den i whispered i love u.i knew he heard me bt he act he didnt.he kept saying he didnt hear. some more ask for d "muacks" sound...in d end aku pekik kat die "i kat escalator lar! ramai org bacin!"..ah kau! die ketawa kan aku mcm dh tkde hari utk ketawa...jahat kan! sayang mataer aku ni sorang... =Dma mum cooked ondeh2 for me...dh lame ku mintak n skarang aru dpt..bt its k..thx u lar ibu...she also cooked rendang ayam...tot of eating bt den I EAT ALOT AT D CEREMONY...so i gif d rendang a miss... =( guess 2molow b4 school goin 2 eat ferst..hehe...reach home wash up a lil den lala land..hehe...bgn kul 12 n now cant sleep back...haiz...bsok skola n keja penat...k lar...i guess dats all...wanie signing off..DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: i miss you pakcik
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
to ma beloved cuzzie...tolong lar bilang kakak sedara mu nie yg anda telah menukar url! aku karate aru ko tau! haha...k...im sad n frust..bt i act happy...no one in ma shoes so no one can really feel wat i felt....FRIENDS haf made me stand on ma own feet n be strong...thx wanee n lia! korang best! its useless to find out d answer wen dat person wont want to gif u d answer..let her think wat she wants to think..cant force her to like me...like wat lia said..mind over matter..."i dont mind n they dont matter..."...such a meaningful phrase...throughout this stage lia was d one dat gif me strength coz die lar yg ade dgn aku bile ku dpt tau psl ni..hahaha...wanee was d 2nd n org paling penting dlm hidup ku tau psl benda ni..LAST LAR..haha...wont tell ma parents till dey ask me...coz ma mum CONFIRM MATI MATIAN SALAH KAN AKU...ma dad wont sae much bt sae kalo ko tk bersalah so let it go...well...im letting it go...friends come n go...
no more hugs,no more kisses,no more laughters,no more gossips...no more us....its pain to let go...bt wat can i do....from d view of people im d bad person here...IT HAS ALWAES BEEN THIS WAY.im tired of thinking n crying..nothing can change d situation...i will just accept it...i know nothing at all....im being kept in d dark. its ok..eventhou i cant stop thinking abt it bt i juz move on...i choose to be happy wif wat i have now...im going to treasure my FRIENDS...where i alwaes did n do...im going to treasure d ones hu gaf me a chance to live,ma parents...im going to treasure my judgement where i believe in Allah s.w.t...im going to treasure d one hu shower me wif love,ahmad rohani. most importantly,IM GOING TO TREASURE MY LIFE. d world is coming to an end soon...i just hope i will have d chance to really sit down n pray to Allah.
she did it again..hurting herself n family...she wants d guy bt d guy just want her body...she's stupid...wat else can i sae...im going to confront her one dae...i cant let her break ma parents heart for d 2nd tym....i juz hate her...i cant bring maself to like or love her...bt wat nisah said was true...u hate her bt u still buy stuffs for her...wat else can i sae? im KINDHEARTED.haha...she's related to me by blood...i cant change d fact..n i cant stop maself from buying things for her wen i bought some for ma own...ma bf also disagree wif ma doings...well..its just me...senang dipergunakan org kate...
my relationship ok..tp cume asyik2 gaduh...dats us lar ehk...bt 1 thing i like...MA ENCIK AHMAD IS GETTING FATTER!! Hahaha...i suke banget...at least tk lar mcm skeleton...ape tu word melayu die..rangka ehk wanee?? haha...he's happy wif his work...im glad...bt im nt glad wif his ica fwens...ade je yg bkn2 dorang bbual2 n mataer aku nie senang kena influence..terikot ikot lar si keding nie...i tk suke u noe...he's going to waste MORE MONEY on his exhaust pipe....gasak lar nak...i advice pn tk gune...to d single gals out there,jgn lar crk mataer yg ade bikes..there will waste more money on d bikes den on u....lia shld understand...wanee u understand? haha...i cant wait till ma birthday!!! hehe...bt aku tk nk mengharap sgt..nnti aku yg terluka sendiri....
k..i tink dats all....people are getting tired of reading ma blog..its alwaes abt d sadness,frustration n anger...bt wat to do..dats ma life...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: todae was an eating all d wae dae...hehe
Monday, July 16, 2007
im busy working...busy thinking about projects that are due very very soon...im very tired..lack of sleep n rest...sooner or later im going to b sick! i need a new change for my award giving ceremony eventhou its a lame shit.*bangga beb pass! walaupn tk minat...wakaka...*i need a new internet modem.i need a new pair of lenses.bt the most important thing...I NEED SLEEP!!!my boyfriend is goin thru an in camp training...how sad...it will be a total of 11 days of not meeting him...haizz....ur anniversary present is ready.ur bdae present is half ready.dun forget mine aite! hehe...dats all...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: i didnt hurt you. you hurt me.
Monday, July 09, 2007
t0 th0se dat i alwaes tr0uble by asking u guys 0ut wif me...IM REALLY S0WIE....i just have t0 g0 0ut 0f ma h0use...please try t0 understand...aku bukan minta simpati...tetapi aku perlukan teman...teman dimana ku b0leh curahkan segala gala nye...i haf t00 much in ma mind...its hard f0r me t0 control everything...i try not to be bothered will everything that happen in ma house...bt can i? can i??? no i cant...im d victim here...no one want to listen to me...y? dey alwaes sae "Kau masih kecik...tk paham org2 dewasa nye hal..."...19 years old masih kecik?? IM 19!!!! dh cukop dewasa utk berfikir....malahan org yg lebih tua drk aku,pemikiran cetek...i had enuf wif all ur nonsense...GET LOST FROM MA LIFE!!!!
to d stupid neighbour who messaged me...U WILL GET UR REVENGE...just watch it...KNNCBB!!!
to ahmad rohani...thx ehk for giving me these evil eyes! haha..naseb baek sebelom pegi skola dh baek...thx u f0r everything eh bie...the love u shower me...the gifts u bought specially for me...the planning for the future...all ma thank wont be enough for what u haf given me...THANK YOU SO MUCH...since i got to noe u...i have already made up my mind what to do wif my life...which is...I WANT TO BE YOURS N YOURS ONLY FOREVER!
=WaNie=Labels: im going to wait for ma pressie...bie...dun forget..
