Thursday, May 29, 2008
im very pissed today...very very pissed! noisy class...poor facilitator who always get bullied and who is very stubborn!
i so hate maths & computing now!
IM SERIOUSLY GOING TO BE QUIET ALL THE WAY TODAY! so not my day...urgh!
feel like going home...but i just cant...thinking back my mum...i become weak...oh ma god...
im tearing myself apart...far far apart... stop asking me y im quiet!! dats wat i choose to do...wait wait.......chong is here again..haha...relax...still got mi....wahahas.....btw...help blogged.....ok...pls continue....avoid wat's up there...typed by ma classmate....so down today...NO MOOD AT ALL TO DO ANYTHING...and the class so damn noisy...i feel like leaving...arh!!! gosh..!i cant stand noise..really...i will just shut my mouth and whoever makes me irritated, i will just blow my top at the person...thank goodness next wk is my break oleadi...bt den have to see them again for 2 more mths after d hols..sianx....see this facilitator another 2 more mths after d hols....OH MA GOD!!!
=WaNie=
Monday, May 26, 2008
im so going to blog this...I PASSED MY BTT!!!! WOOHHOOOO!!!! COOL OR C.O.O.L....??? HAHAHAHHA!!!im so happy!!!next will be FTT...must prepare myself....i want to finish all this and hold a Class 3 license!! woohoo!!!im so happy...im so glad!!! hhhahaha....k lar...dats all...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=
Sunday, May 25, 2008
like...AT LAST WE ARE BACK TOGETHER!!!! how relief i felt....it all happen on friday nite...i was working that nyte...then wen i was serving a customer, suddenly i saw a familiar face...its...MY DARLING! =D surprised that he came down...but his face was 'stone'...like usual... after seeing him there...i gave a customer wrong change sia..haha...he send me home after work...all the way didnt talk at all...then when at my void deck then he started to talk to me...guess why he suddenly came down...its because he dreamt that there's a third party in our relationship!!! he's scared that the dream come true that's y he came down...then he talk2...and apologise...and both of us cried...and he surprised me more with ferreroce heart shape with and apology card..sweet kan....!!! met him again last nyte...eventhough i was tired after working for almost 10 hrs i still meet him...i did not regret meeting him cos it was a lot of fun!!! hehetoday worked for 9 hrs...so sian bt it wasnt as tired as last nyte....tomolow ma btt!!! and i havent even revised! sianx!!!btw! wen just now i was waiting for the IMM bus...when i joined the queue a gal yg maseh bwh umur ard 15 or 16 like that stare at me from top to bottom wif her botak eyebrow ternaek! kpala otak die lar! n guess wat? she wear a white skinny jeans wif her green underwear coming out...read it again..UNDERWEAR...not panties ok...n guess wat again?? HER BF IS A BUTCH!!! dey keep smooching as if they r the greatest kissers in d world! YUCKZ!!! n another thing...wen they were showing off their so called kissing skill, there was a bangla looking at them...and u guys noe wat happen??? he got high!! oh my god! see like that also can stim! haha...n he have the gut to carress his lil bro at that point of time!!! haha...there are so many disgusting people in the world..dats all...wanie signing off!! dah!!!=WaNie=
Friday, May 23, 2008
what will you do when u miss the one you love deeply?camy: see d pics of the person,remembering back d memories...blog it out and cry when blogging...i have done all that...but the feeling is still there....i have already told him that i miss him...bt too bad..it doesnt work....ignoring me is what he choose to do...today is the 7th day...haiz....working later...im tired to go to work..but have to...ghaya scheduled me oleadi bahx....sianx....headache man....life is in a mess...=WaNie=Labels: waiting for you is like waiting for a durian to drop from a rambutan tree...
Thursday, May 22, 2008
6th day and still counting...yesterdae did talk to him...coz of his messages i become weak in the heart...i become a stupid damn girl...i give in to him...but it aint help...at the end of the day we still quarelled and i blow my top!regret for replying his messages...regret for telling him his mistakes...why? BECAUSE IM STARTING TO MISS HIM!!!the past few days, without his messages i can still breathe...why? because i was really angry with him...after telling him his mistakes, i felt guilty...he said that i've hurt him..and that makes me guilty...arh! damn! i hate this feeling...i aint in the wrong but yet i felt guilty...damn!"being attached doesnt mean we have the right to stop our partner from doing things...doesnt mean we have the right to forbid them from being friends with whoever they want...being steady is just a situation whereby both of us know that we are into each other and that we are in the stage of getting to know more, not in the stage of having to gurantee that we BELONG to each other..."...took dis from a friend's blog...wanted to msg him that bunch of words..but later he will leave me be....leave me alone..let me doing whatever i want to do and act as if he isnt a part of me anymore...i dont want that...but i want him to realise what im going through...but i dunno how to tell him...urgh!i WANT him...i NEED him...i LOVE him...i DISKLIKE some parts of him.... ='(ahmad rohani...have u ever realised my love for you? have u ever realised i have changed bit by bit just for u? have u ever realised all my actions are for u? HAVE U EVER REALISED MY SWEETLOVE?questions that will have no answers...=WaNie=Labels: slashing my heart bit by bit...
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
5th day and i think i will keep counting...nothing has changed...=WaNie=
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
met ma GFs last fridae...went for karaoke-ing.....wait wait...hihi...blogged by chongpls ignore the italic entry...was entered by one of ma classmate...continue about last fridae...there were only me,wanee,fanah n nisah...yg laen2 tu biase jgk...ade hal laen...we ate first before singing like hell...ate ljs AT LAST!sang lots of jiwang song...wakaka....go home heard the wanee's story...then dgn baek ati nye fanah balek jln kaki dgn aku..haha..aku tau fanah sayang aku! ahha...sayang sayang sayang...ahahhai cried when talked to fanah..cant take it ar....terus aleh2 meleleh jek...k lar..dats all...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=
it has been 3 days straight that we are not in talking terms....today is the 4th day...yesterday also meet we never really talked...but yet...you make my blood boil...really really made me mad...walau weh! thinking of it already make me mad! uurrgghh! i was already so tired waiting for you the whole day. in the end we met up and you said you do not want to remain in jurong...WTH!i felt so stupid yesterday...really! go down to kallang from jurong just to go to kfc coz of free flow drink & mcd is just opposite! gosh! pathetic or wat???!i should not have lsiten to you...im still mad at you really...i don't feel guilty at all...i won't say sorry not because im egoistic...but! IM NOT WRONG A SINGLE BIT...kiwak!!! aku bingit siot!!! aarrrhhhh!!! i feel like slapping someone sia!!! and i dun feel to meet him at all at the moment...period!=WaNie=Labels: hati ini semakin perit dibuat nya...
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i am causing a lot of troubles for my family...
i felt that im begging others for my future...
i keep crying in silence and in my sleep...
can i just quit and find a job?
can i???
how i wish i didnt choose to go there...coz now i feel that im not suitable to be there....GOSH!
im miserable!
no one understand thou...
when will my LCCI result be out?? i cant wait any longer...i really2 dying to pass LCCI...
i need solutions...im tired...really...really tired...
sleepless nites...disturbed prayers...painful eyes and painful heart...
i felt so lost... ='(
missing so many people rite now...BF also i miss...i really need his shoulder to cry on!
Ya Allah...i need ur guidance...please....please show me the rite path and the rite decision dat i should make...please Ya Allah...
=WaNie=
Labels: what should i do...
Sunday, May 11, 2008
started working yesterdae..it was okok bahx...just tired in the leg ar...my purpose of holding a part time job is to1) stop asking my mum/dad for anymore money2) to pay my laptop installments on my own3) using my own money for concession4) at least have some money to spend when going out with my GFs/BFbut yet...another heartbreaking news greeted me after i came back from work yesterday...received a letter from MENDAKI...and guess what? im not eligible to receive 100% tuition fee paid by them...that means?? THAT MEANS I HAVE TO FORK OUT MONEY TO PAY FOR THE SCHOOL FEES EVERY SEMESTER!!! where am i going to fork out almost $800 every semester!! ='(it has been in my mind since then..till now...dalam hati ku selalu berkata..."wanie, kau kena belajar betul2...kau masuk poly sebab kau nk mak bapak kau hidup senang..."...but now?? i keep troubling them...from one problem to another...uurrghh!i can ask for more help...but i need guarantors...and only my uncle is eligible...confirm + chop my mum wont allow ma BF to be one of the guarantor...aku rase bingit..bingit sesangat...tapi aku berdosa untuk berfikir sedemikian...aku sakit hati bile tahu yang makcik aku yg lebih hidup mewah dari keluarga aku bole dapat 100% tuition fee paid by MENDAKi....AAAAHHHHHHHAAAAHHHHH!!!!when will all these end???!!!!can i just give up? ='(=WaNie=
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
today module is...SCIENCE!!! the most i hate...Thank God the time fly quite fast...meeting ma mum later on for typhoid...Got a job...starting dis sat...i dun care animore that d pay is very2 small...as long i've got the money to help ma parents....i just pray hard dat i can tahan with the job...InsyaAllah... =)ma relationship okok onli...as usual bahx...school also okok...still can tahan a lil bit...told ma parents about me quitting poly IF i pass ma lcci (means a full Diploma)..guess wat ma dad sae? "hah! ok jugak tu.." hahah!!! bagus kan ade bpk mcm gini..haha...ma mum said "dh boring lar tu blajar..dulu jgk ya ya nk msk poly"...mhhmmpp! ya ya...die tk tau aku msk poly utk ape...oh well...we'll just see wat will the future holds for me.... =)oh well...i do not know what else to blog about...that's all i guess...=WaNie=Labels: missing you girls plus a guy...
Sunday, May 04, 2008
had a "sweet escape from daily problems " last fridae...met these popular people...farid kamil to be included as well...bt didnt take any pictures with him...
it was an ease of mind for awhile...can relax for awhile...btw sorry for the blurry image...because the photographer tk leh harap! tgn shaky lar..tdk aku tgk clear lar...A BIG "W" for u!
got vouchers to dine at ramen tien as well..and 2 tix for citer duyung..COOLNESS or what! ahah....
i do not what else to blog...dats all... take care all bloggers....
=WaNie=
Labels: sweet escape from daily madness...
