Wednesday, April 30, 2008
firstly, these are for the guys out there...U GUYS ARE SELF CENTREDCRUEL CREATURE...MOST CRUEL ONES ON EARTHU GUYS ARE JUST DAMN PLAIN SHIT!! GET IT??!secondly, these are for YOU young lady!...KNNCCB!!!STOP COMPLAINING AND PLEASE DO YOUR WORK!STOP ACTING DUMB!STOP TALKING TOO MUCH!BE THANKFUL THAT OTHERS ARE HELPING YOU!today is not a good day for me...dumb strucked with the problem today...do not know how to solve the problem...just do anyhow...cried in front of BF because of the stupid damn science module...a laughing session and a hurt session with BF...*jokes may be taken seriously*...i just lost the touch and feeling...sometimes i love but sometimes i am being patient...because of the love i received, i stay strong...because of your smile, my heart melt...because of your hugs & kisses, i go crazy...because of your high expectation from me, i go bonkers....what is the meaning of my life then?allowing others to make me as a scapegoat? to make others happy and sacrifice my own happiness? to make someone else run my life?im making the wrong turn..im making others to make decisions for me till i got no more room for consideration...its ok...i will let faith bring me to where i am suppose to be...i will cry my heart out whenever im in a deep shit...cry as if there is no tomorrow...as day goes by im trying to be stronger...for you, my dearest mum....as day goes by im trying to be more patient...for you, my beloved boyfriend....20 years have past, and now im here to make you proud...3 years have past, and now im locking you as my first and last love...so people...please...do understand my situation...i BEG you...please...for my dearest friend ever, i may not be in your shoes, but i felt it too...the friendship is priceless for you, but too bad she doesnt treasure you...i will always be by your side...i may not be your greatest,best,coolest or close friend...but! you are my friend! and just remember the message farhanah forward to us about friendship...my friend, I LOVE YOU.for my lovely friend ever, i may not be in your shoes, but i felt it too...it was too deep to avoid...the love,the promises...yes! i know...they make you alive again...but remember promises are meant to be broken..and love is made up of a heart shape and not a circle*hope you understand what i mean here*....broken pieces can be mend, InsyaAllah....you have to stay strong,percaya kepadaNYA sahaja...berserah...and one last thing i want you to know...I LOVE YOU.to kodok,moi,effa & fadh...I LOVE YOU GUYS AS WELL...=WaNie=Labels: sorry for the harsh words..yes i know its a little too explicit..so sorry...
im in class right now...and im clueless about todae's problem...its damn difficult!!!i hate science!!! ma gosh! hw i wish i can pass this module and get rid of this madness!!!after school meeting BF...earlier on talk abt work wif a classmate...im interested to work there...bt im scared...haiz...dats all...=WaNie=Labels: i so hating this...
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
im seeing the history repeating itself again....u asking for freedom...i hope you wont regret if one day u really get the freedom u dying to get...im seeing u changing...u are not the same as what u were...why? may i noe why?i do not know how to talk to you...why? because you will not listen...so why must i bother rite?bt i just cant sit here and just see u rot and become someone that isnt you...uurrgghh!!! u say vulgarities...u do things ur parents dun like...u follow most of ur friends footstep...y must u follow d majority??gosh! i cant sae anything else...=WaNie=Labels: im angry...really really angry...angry at YOU...yes YOU..
Saturday, April 26, 2008
since 2 days ago i wanted to cry...but i just cant...i guess ma tears have dried up....eventhou it doesnt happen to me...IT HAPPEN TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME...i felt it too...d fear is getting stronger....d sadness is unbearable...they were 'secocok'...bt how can all these happen?why my dear friends?one lesson to be learn...no no...2 lessons to be learn...1. do not be TOO CLOSE to a friend....2. trust NO ONE...keep getting bad news...one after another...n now my BF is M.I.A.what else can i say? im speechless...=WaNie=Labels: buat ku kebingungan...yg aku tk mahu, datang..., yg ku cari kian hilang
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
im feeling frustrated...very frustrated....intend not to go to school todae..bt thinking abt todae's module..i dedcided to come...the sore throat is killing me...i just felt irritated by someone...TROUBLESOME...COMPLAIN TOO MUCH...KEEP COMPLAINING...hey xcuse me...if u want to complain rite...do something first ok...dun just shoot ur mouth...to whoever read dis..if u feel dat im talking abt u den it is u if i give u evil faces or dun even bother to talk to u...a hint to EVERYBODY...its ugly if u make me irritated...u will get bad treatment i tell u...n i will make u sorry...on a lighter note...hahaha!!! i got an A at last!!! in all ma grades at least there's one A!! haha...COOL...doesnt have the mood to talk so much earlier on in class...FRUSTRATED + PAINFUL THROAT + UNEASINESS IN STOMACH + SLEEPY + IRRITATED = NO MOOD AT ALL...met BF after sch yesterdae..okok baby lar...still loving him strongly and not starting to hate him.. *p.s hw can i hate him wen i love him lots?* told BF abt ma ambition of entering university after dis...his reply was "can...tp nasib ar kahwin biler umur dh 30++"..something like dat..btl jgk ape die ckp..haha...he said let get us married ferst den only thing abt university...n oh ya! he added dis "u show me ferst dat u can survive in poly den only we talk abt university k..."...yar yar...i noe...ma attitude sucks rite now..hahaha...kk...i dunno wat else to blog..so..wanie signing OFF...dah!!p.s. CUT YOUR FINGERNAILS...SHAVE UR ARMPIT HAIR IF U WANT TO WEAR SLEEVELESS OR SHORT SLEEVE SHIRT..IT IS SO UNSIGHTFUL!i noe im abusing ma blog.. =p=WaNie=Labels: changing into a person who is FATTER, QUIET and BEAR GRUDGES...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Im suffocated..YES! Im suffering...YES!u make me suffocated by breathing the same air as u are...tot staying at home will be better...coz people always say RUMAHKU SYURGAKU...bt i was wrong...pathetic rite? i know...everything went wrong...nothing was right at all..WHAT IS THIS???!!!My weekdays have been kept busy with dreading to go to sch...i tot weekends will be better!BUT! it was d opposite...wats going on with my life!!!u were not helping but u were making me worst! yes! W-O-R-S-E!everyone thinks that im always in the wrong...emo lar,think too much lar...hey! hey! u r not in ma shoes...how will u noe??on a serious note...I DONT WISH TO LIVE ANYMORE...seriously...slashing wont help....tried it many times...jump off the building is SO NOT ISLAM...going to war will not make me mati jihad...bang myself towards a moving vehicle is CONFIRM PLUS CHOP neraka for me...WAT CAN I DO??go thru ma sick & pathetic life den...uurrgghh!!! U GUYS ARE TO BE BLAME!=WaNie=Labels: so long and gd nyte...
Friday, April 18, 2008
i go to school for the sake of going...nothing much...no excitement at all...when i was in ITE, i enjoyed going to school because of the existence of FRIENDS...even when i felt lazy to go to school, i still go..why? because i want to spend time at school with my FRIENDS...in RP? dread going to school...not understanding the modules...childish peeps...arrogant peeps....all those peeps that i just cant stand...long hours in school...everyday same timing...SO DREADING IT!im feeling helpless, useless, hopeless...im feeling that i've made the wrong move...im feeling that i am wasting my time and effort...im feeling that im standing alone on this big battlefield...i feel that i want give up...but i cant...why? because im living in the dream of my ONE & ONLY mother...i did not want to share what i felt with her because i know that she will be disappointed...i just want to be alone right now...no interruption at all please...im frustrated...but i just do not know where to throw this hurtful feeling...to those reading my blog, i may be frustrated at you..YES! YOU!to those not reading my blog, i may be frustrated at you as well...BUT! i do not what im frustrated about...many things happen at one point...no one tried to understand me....yes i noe they could not understand me because i did not open up and tell them what im going through...to me, no use telling when in the end, i will be point as the one "who thinks too much", "the self-centred"...i just want to keep it in my heart...because even when i share what i felt, it will result in hurting myself also....back to square one i can say....right now, i will just keep it in myself until one moment that i will just blow it all out...so...BE PREPARED...=WaNie=Labels: keep mum is better rather than telling...
had a very painful stomach cramp since yesterdae afternoon...dunno y...it was so bad i can sae...today the mood to go to school was...100%...75%....50%....10%...0%!!!! YESH! 0%!!! no mood at all sia...with the stomach cramp,sleepiness AND not understanding this module!urghh! im frust rite now...irritated....sad...all at one point...=WaNie=Labels: pls reflect urself...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
aaarrhhH!!!!! im dead!!! presentation sucks!!! feel like crying!! not ma dae todae...everything go wrong..!! im doomed!BYE!=WaNie=
i know that i have a fetish for hairy guys...bt ma bf not hairy ar..(bie...im giving u a hint!)hehe..wait! wait! i dun mean hairy hand, legs, armpit or other parts...bt! i like guys wif lots of hair on the head!too bad ma BF prefer shorter hair...haiz...k dats all i wanna blog..haha...=WaNie=
i noe dat im from ITE den only go poly...RP some more...i noe what u think...U LOOK DOWN ON ME...its ok...i tried my best till i get here...u said something abt ITE peeps are matreps...not all i can sae...o level peeps can be matreps as well...i noe im stupid...i noe i need longer duration to study till dis far...i noe u peeps look down on us ITE students/leavers...wat can i do? u guys are stereotype...if i just let it be means u r at a winning strike...i cant make dat happen...now im goin to make ma stand! EVENTHOUGH I USED TO BE AN ITE STUDENT, IT DOESNT MEAN I CANT BE HERE...I MEAN IN POLY....EVENTHOUGH I GOT INTO POLY, IT DOESNT MEAN IM USELESS JUST BECAUSE IM IN RP (the less popular poly in spore)...IM SO MAD!=WaNie=Labels: stop looking down on me
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
another fast dae in sch todae...todae sch okok ar...bt urgh!! i hate ma grades for last week....got 2 Cs sia!!! haiz...nvm2...let it be....oh well...was very2 sleepy earlier on...n kinda moody a lil...poor pei yun talked to me also i blur2...sowie bahx..wen im sleepy i dun like to talk so much ar...aniwae...WANIE NOW A VERY QUIET PERSON...haha...in all the teachers' comment confirm got dis "u are a quiet person and u dun intend to talk alot wif ur members"..haha...wanie now quiet sia...ahahain train saw 2 of ma pri sch mates..heng ah i got book to read sia...u guys imagine ehk...from woodlands till j.e ma head was down reading d book all d while....y? because i dun to see dem....later dey sae hi..ahaha...den wen reach j.e, ma neck very pain..haha...serve u rite sia...while walkin home, saw an apek riding bicycle...he stopped at d same traffic lite as i was...den i saw he spit!! IT IS SO Y-U-C-K-Y!!! i just wonder why in dis country, whereby it is developed n civilised bt yet UNCIVILISED PEOPLE like dis apek still do exist! uurrgghh! all d way i was swearing him..hopefully he will step on his spitted saliva..haha....aniwae...2molow till fridae got SLA...its like cca open hse like dat ar...i dunno whether to join or not ar...i actually lazy..bt den wen during break just now suddenly saw a booth..malay culture...somethin like dat ar...suddenli feel interested like dat...haha...told BF abt it...he was okok wif it..den i sae skali i in malay dance den he laugh sia...bad rite..haha...bt i m more interested in dikir bahx...oh well...just c hw lar 2molow...hehe...dats all...wanie signing off..DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: Kawan itu sejati dan akan kekal sebagai kawan....
Monday, April 14, 2008
today time fly so fast..Alhamdulilah...today class was HARD but i was satisfied....haha..like confuse like dat rite? ahha...its like microsoft excel!!! haha...bt dis one use more of d code thingy...i had to make a game program using codes..susah seh! and d teacher didnt even teach ehk! so we have to figure every single thing out....thank god junaidi is in ma grp..d comp freak...haha!!!i said to d grp dat i want to be hacker coz i already noe some codes...everybody laugh sia...haha...wanie mcm P aje!! ahahha....today lunch got company...sandra and pei yun...thx gals...i always lunch alone bt 2dae got ppl...hehehe...after sch met ma sis at causeway....den walk2...den go hme...dats all i wanna blog...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: my love for u is growing...
Saturday, April 12, 2008
trying my best to stay strong in RP..hopefully i can...haizz...eh xcuse me! walaupn aku surf d net biler dlm class at least aku buat keja aku,ok!!! uurrgghh!!! at least i noe what im doing bahxx...W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R!talked for awhile wif lia earlier on...abt ctn n etc..MAKE SURE U DO WAT U SAID EHK!! jmpe aku bile aku nye break tym...hahaa...i so miss hanging out wif u guys...biler nk jmpe lgk?gone out wif BF,helmi & gf since morning till evening...come hme straight away on comp carik lagu...haha...nisah said wanee,fanah n iffah doesnt want to go for d grad thingy...haiz...dunno wat else to blog...dats all...wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: i dread going there...
Friday, April 11, 2008
everyone kept asking me whether im goin for d graduation thingy or not...im clueless as well...hahaha...u guys go i go lorhx...i anithin bahx..(can escape from sch for a day!) haha...since started sch...i tink im goin to be fat...at sch didnt eat...den at hme eat like a PIG! i eat alot these few daes sia...everytym after eating confirm plus chop i will fall asleep till morning...and yet still very sleepy in class..haha....n i hate d morning rush!!! uurrgghh!!! i just wonder y people cant wait to enter d train...let others go out first lar!!!! just now wen i reach woodlands...suddenly ma dad called me...he said wait for him....i was shock lor...y he come from bukit timah till woodlands!!! it was touching i can sae....he came down just to see me to school...smpai menangis sak aku! he said "adk,ayah tgk semua org jln semua ade partner...adk jln sorang2...kesian adk"....i cried sia...bt i act strong and sae.."nvm ar...loner pe"...haha...bt i tink im pathetic ar...dats all..wanie signing off...DAH!!!=WaNie=Labels: is it rite or wrong?
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
todae is d 3rd dae of sch...okok baby onlie...like usual...BF came by during lunch to bring me some A&W curly fries...mcm dh lame giler gituk tk mkn A&W...haha...he stay ard for awhile and tell me d things dat happen in d morning..last nyte ma uncle came to do the internet thingy..Alhamdulilah...dh boleh...hehe....yesterdae after sch went to causeway point ALONE...look for laptop bag and mouse...bt didnt get any....den reach jw go central to look for those things again...and ALONE...ma mum was shocked dat i was ALL ALONE all the while...haha...maklum lar....aku nie tk reti nk sorang2...haha....den wen hme as usual onli lorhx...den later meeting ma mum at jp...dats all...=WaNie=
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
i miss the old tym...old tym in ITE...we went to sch taking d same bus everydae...we go home also together...we come to sch late together...we make teacher angry with us together...we work together...we kecoh2 together...we share laughter, cries and probs together...I MISS ALL THESE!!!i miss the way we were....we will alwaes or often take d same bus to sch...eventhou we noe dat we r in d same bus bt went we alight from d bus, all our faces like moody2 like dat and we wont start talking until we enter d school/classroom...breaks will always be noisy with our laughter and talks...i miss making teachers fed up by being noisy in class...eventhou it was only 2 short years...i have gain lots...d most important thing is dat...I'VE GAIN GREAT PEOPLE AS MY FRIENDS...i miss seeing these things:- fadh being d first in class reading d newspaper...-lia being d first in class wen she is ALWAYS MISS LATE...hehehe-wanee's moody face...-wanee's kecoh tyms...-nisah suddenly come to sch wif new hairstyle/bag/hp...(most happening when she comes to sch wif a new hairstyle...hehe)-me being late and drag wanee n nisah along coz we always take d same bus...-drawing in BA lessons...-talking n sharing secrets during BA n meetings...-fanah's changing hairstyle(straight,curly n straight back)...-iffah's moody face on tuesdaes...-miss getting helps from teachers...-miss queing up thinking to buy a food bt wen comes to d front it changes to another food item...haha- miss gossip abt someone dat d whole grp dislikes...ahhaha...there's alot more...haiz...i pray hard dat all of u will shine in ur life!!!BABES n a HUNK...u guys are not forgotten...but u guys are being missed by...WANIE...take care k ma frends....=WaNie=Labels: no one noes hw much i miss u guys...
Monday, April 07, 2008
aku skg kat skola....mataer aku yg anta aku gi skola...ingt dtg siang utk btl kan lappy tp in d end lambat jgk...n den gi it helpdesk den die suro gi class je...nari aku tk tau brape byk aku nngis....aku cume confuse ar...tk tau whether aku masok poly nie jln yg btl ke tk...coz aku sendiri tkde confident dlm diriku....lepas tu aku msk class...aku duduk sorang seh...lepas tu cikgu grp kan kiter....aku kekok giler coz drg semua dh knl each other during d orientation....aku srg je solo...haiz...n dlm class nie cume ade 3 melayu (2 lelaki + 1 pompan-aku), byk mama n byk cine....haiz...n dlm class nie cume ade 2 org je 20 thn...aku n lgk satu lelaki melayu...aku tk leh sak sorang2...mcm tk btl gitu kn....aku blog pn aku nngis...ape nie wanie!!!!saw some familiar faces from ITE clem...kn bgs kalo drg same class dgn aku....uurrgghhhh!!!! at least tk pernah bbual kat ite...kat sini dh leh jdk kwn...malangnye kiter laen class...everydae lik 430...everydae class start kul 9...n tk leh lambt walaupn seminit...kalo tk drg deduct 0.5 pts...MEPEK!aku tk tau nk blog ape lgk...n kalo sape2 yg bace nie heran knape ku blog in malay...kerna aku kn tgh blog kat skola...abeh org sebelah aku karang bace jgk....tu bab melayu better..haha...k dats all..=WaNie=Labels: aku rase aku leh jdk pendiam kat skola...hahaha
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
im so disappointed wif ma results!!!!! aaahhhhh!!!!ape dh jdk wanie??? makin lame makin merosot!!!!dis tym round im hampa+sad+confused+frust+many2 more = BESAR NYE UPSET AND NEED ENTERTAINMENT!!!poly?? hah! naseb lerh wanie...result gitu nk msk poly...sp lak tu ko impi kan...MIMPI KAN AJE LER...alamak!!! tk tau larh nk ckp ape lgk..yg aku tau...AKU HAMPA!!!!=WaNie=Labels: guess..work is the best option?
