Tuesday, January 27, 2009
i lost my beloved this morning...i cried...i cried...and i continue crying...wen i received the news at work, i was shocked...i cant control the tears...not even now...the tears just wont stop flowing down...i tried to stay strong at work...bt my sadness just wont stop showing...i was asked to go back at 12...straight away went to ma aunt's crib...saw sab as well...and i didnt noe that he knows my dearest as well...the first few moments in the crib was quite ok...bt nt until he was brought in...from there the tears flow...flow like pipe bocor yg tk bole di betulkan lgk...my other cousins must be confuse...why i cried like there's no tomorrow....i am as confuse as them...why didnt they shed a tear at all???dont dey love him as much as i love him???im wondering....bt one thing i noe...I DO LOVE HIM...love him like my own...he was there since i was born...watched me grow up...taught me things...came to ma house whenever he's free....i looked upon him as someone that i really appreciate in life...i saw him grow older each passing dae as well...from he is sihat wal'afiat...till he cant walk bt still can talk..till he cant walk, talk and not even sit...i was there...as he grew older...as he was being prepared...the tears were there...my sadness were there....i feel pain all over me...he's gone...gone forever...i wont be able to see him ever again...i will miss him....he was such a nice guy...his face was very peaceful earlier on...i wanted to kiss him for the very last tym....bt i just cant...the tears just wont stop flowing and the uztaz keep reminding us abt our tears getting on him...so i just sit next to him and look at him real hard for the very last time.. ='(now i have lost all my beloved atoks...how i want to know more about them...and cherish them more...i didnt get the chance to know ma paternal grandad at all coz he was gone even before i was born...how sad can i be...coz every single soul said that ma grandad was a GREAT guy...he's a guy that doesnt noe the meaning of anger...bt he does noe real well the meaning of LOVE and KASIH SAYANG...that's the only thing i noe about ma paternal grandad...i didnt even noe how he looks like..didnt noe how he sounds like...i dont even noe how his love feels...ma step paternal grandad was one good guy as well....i have never seen he frown or even shout...he is a calm guy i can say...eventhough we are nt close...i noe he cares....coz he shows it out loud...how i miss going to his place...how i miss looking at his smiles....i didnt get to see him for the last time coz i was in school...i jolly well remember it all happened in 1997 wen i was in pri 3...ma maternal grandad...he's the closest grandad...i was always there with him...coffeeshop...bird parks...void decks lepak-ing...u just named it....he gave me a nick name that i wont ever forget..."Supinah"...i don even noe how he gets that name from ma name..the only thing i noe is that ma parents gave such a difficult name for me that ma own grandad cant even remember or even pronounce it... bt its ok.. =) coz i noe tht the nick name meant so much to him as well as to me...wen i was still young he was already sick...so volunteerily i helped him whenever i can...i will be his walking stick.....he was gone when i was in pri 1...still young and dumb...i cried and cried...like i cried todae...i kissed him for the very last time coz he's the real love i ever have...blogging about all my beloved grandads makes me miss them more....im sorry to bore u guys with my sad stories...dear tok ah, i am going to miss u like how i miss u everytime...bt now, its even more...may Allah put u with the best and greatest man...Amin...=WaNie=Labels: ini semua ketentuan NYA....aku terima..
Friday, January 23, 2009
sch ended around 1240 yesterdae bt guess wat tym i reached home?? 5++ !! haha...ma mum was pissed off when she heard about my early dismissal yet reach home darn late...haha....
this is all because of....
this guys arh!!! wait for them rite like waiting for a mak andam make up-ing a pengantin u noe!
bingit kejap seh...dh lar lapar...then must wait for them some more! urgh!! haha...after doing their things we dunno where to eat den in d end we ate at KFC...the most un-glamorous action shown there sia! haha...dgn all the lettuce, the mayo, the chilli, the cheese all drip...haha....so the malu....
after eating we talk2 about relationships...btw fiz...kate2 ko menusuk ke jiwa smpai tk leh tdo seh!
den we move outdoor coz caliph want to smoke...den we talk shit again...with sonic without legs and egg man....and all the sega and xbox thingy...haha....u guys are crap ok!
after that caliph went back to sch and fiz and me went home...
after reach jurong, wait for ibu and balqis at pm...wait for them like as if pm and ma house is like from boon lay to clementi lar seh...pissed me off seh waiting for people...tu tk psl...den went to the clinic...then i asked to clinic assistant
wanie: wat is the waiting time?
c.a: 1 and half hr...
wanie: 1 and half hr?? so long...
c.a: yar...so ur number is ard 8...
wanie: huh? so long...ok ar...
imagine that we waste time at the clinic bt see the doc not even 10 mins! we went to the clinic ard 6 den our number was called at 835!!! alamak! really bingai!
then reached home tried to sleep....so i was already in bed at 950....den guess wat time i slept?? 1++!!!! another really bingai....
in a few hrs time meeting ma BABES and HUNK!!! wweehhh!!! ahha...k lar...chiao!
=WaNie=
Labels: last day...cherish it...
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
last nyte i smsed the wrong msg to the wrong person...and i felt so the paiseh..naseb baek tkde mushy2 stuffs..haha...oh yar...went to the market wif ma mum earlier on..i was super surprised that the prices of fishes have rose tremendously! imagine a whole fish cost 10 bucks! and even 3 pieces of fish cost 10 bucks!!! crap! and guess wat ma mum did?? she bought vegetables instead of all those fishes! haha...we are goin green these few days!! haha...ma mum nagged at me for not going to school 2dae..she said that i can have all the free daes wen my vacation starts next week..so y absent maself and bla bla bla...and the bf didnt know that i was not in sch earlier on..hehe..the BF is holidae-ing with his fam at desaru...wat i feel? eemm....it feels normal..hehe...earlier on he was upset with the way i spoke to him on the phone...its like i dont care that he aint ard spore and its like i wont miss him like dat..hehe...i tink the BF think too much ar...so i just hope he enjoy his stay there...he need the break man!and abt my title of this post is about SINGAPOREANS...YES! my own countryman..sometimes i just hate them..actually not sometimes bt everytime! they have no heart, empathy or even the slightest sympathy for people around them...well, im talkin abt the way they board, alight the mrt trains..hee hee...like yesterdae incident, i was so pissed off with one of the commuter, from outside the train oleadi she running for a seat in the train..its like she forgot to take her 4D ticket that has won the 1st price like dat sia...i was so darn pissed off with her...imagine that she ran from outside and couldnt care less abt the people ard her and just sit down..ehk! buat gua punye darah UUUUPPPPPP aje!! (haha..dh mcm cite remp-it)...haha...as for my everydae experience, people just so selfish and enter the train before other commuters alight...AND I CAN BET U THAT I AINT LIKE THAT! i mean like...hellO! i tink we are the onli country with all the "Please be courteous.let passengers alight first" posters ard the place...if our people are to be put in the western part of the world, i tink these people are a humiliation to mankind...hhmmpphh!thats all i wanna sae...and yar..in 2 daes time meeting ma BABES and the HUNK...=WaNie=
Labels: new addiction....
Friday, January 16, 2009
super darn bored rite now in class...keep downloading games just now...bt there's nothing nice and attract me to keep playing those games...so wat did i do? play old games lorhx....sianx....
earlier on ma manager gave me a call and ask me to work...SIAO!! if i can work i work oleadi sia...
manager: hello wanie...can come down to work? reva not coming leh...
wanie: im schoolin lar seh...
manager: wat tym u can come down? u finish sch wat tym?
wanie: i finish at 4.30..
manager: omg! 430 ar? haiyo...ok lar..bye..
2molow's ma mum bdae...ordered a cake oleadi..and meeting the BF again 2molow!!! weee!!! i feel so excited...the last tym met him was on wednesdae..it was a short meet up bt i really enjoyed myself... =))
watched rachel's getting married...i recommend u guys....NOT TO WATCH IT! damn boring....hhmmpph! tot of watching passengers next...hopefully dats a gd movie...when reached town oleadi we were like confuse with the place..haha...so the long time never jejak town oleadi...
wanie: bie...kalo u tglkn i sorang2 kat town i rase i lost seh u...
bf: tu ar...dh lame ehk tk jejak sini...tp kan...i tk rase u lost...u jgk dulu yg ajar i jln town..
wanie: haha...a ah ehk...tp skg laen seh bie...
met bf's friend...they talked2 den we went off....
wanie: bie, ur friend tdk tu muke die mcm ur friend yg kite jmpe kat jp ehk dgn gal die dulu...
bf: jp? dgn gal die ehk? arh...tu lar die...
wanie: tk tk...bkn yg ini...muke die same tp bkn nie...
bf: die lar! kwn i, i tau lar...
i was shocked lorh...wen we meet him at jp he looked old...bt now he look younger...wakakak!!!
year 1 is going to end in just a week...and in 3 mths time i will known as a year 2 student... =)) a great feeling bt yet also a scary feeling....going to do all IT stuffs in yr 2...and i noe dat im sucks at it...den yr 3 will do all the business stuffs...which im sucks at even more...and im still wondering till now why i am here...hhmm....
attendance and grades have been REALLY BAD...bet ya dat im going to get a warning letter sooner or later...believe it or not?? nah...cant believe it....sianx! in ITE, i have NOT RECEIVE A SINGLE WARNING LETTER ok! i was rajin to go to school...nw the opposite..haha....usually ite have bad students with bad attendance rite....bt ma record was ok...bt in here i drop like hell..haha....i just really hope dat yr 2 i will be better... =) u guys pray for me also aite... =))
im totally broke dis mth...tot dat i can save up dis mth...bt hell no! i even spend more than i earn...so how? tell me people...how am i going to get married like dis?? haha....
insyaAllah dis yr will be our 4th year...it has been such a long ride...real long... =) thank God that i have stayed strong for the relationship..FRIENDS noe how many times i wanna give up...bt their words and encouragements tell me to stay strong...and now here we are...coming to 4 yrs... =) if we end up getting married, insyaAllah, it means that we are going to noe each other eemm...ard 8 yrs before getting married? ard there lar...wow! thats long..! =)
bt im still not ready to get to noe his family...really....coz im anti-social lar seh...cant click with people that much....den how to get married like dat?? haha...
k...i will stop my rants about marriage..haha....
THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE...
=WaNie=
Labels: i want to do alot of things with so little money....
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
have been cabot-ing class for the 2nd time dis week...aint that interested anymore to sit in the class for freaking 8 hrs since there's only left 3 wks till 10 wks of break! so yeah...being a devil nowadays....haha...at the same time, the class is like dead and the classes are darn boring with tough topics!so yesterdae cabot to go and buy new furniture for the room...and todae cabot to accompany ma bro n his frend to bbdc...and den teh tarik we go! haha..after dat i lazy to go home...so i roam the entire jp ON MY OWN...and i bought things till im broke now! urgh! i bought things for balqis and make-ups for myself...and just buying few make up items like lip gloss, foundation & powder make me broke! that haven yet include my eyeliner and mascara lar seh! urgh! thx goodness ma eyeliner and mascara still gt a little more... =))i have been eye-ing a handbag that attracts me alot...bt now i dunno whether i need it or nt lar seh...bt the WANT is there...bt the NEED aint there..so how? buy or not ehk? hhmm...wondering...and yeah...earlier on was my first time ever taking a gilera....i was surprised thou seeing ma bro with a gilera..wen we were ready to go off...i was like..."ehk! where to put ma legs ehk...there's only 1 pair of footrest sia!" haha....almaklum lar first tym naek gilera...so tk tau ane nk letak kaki...haha...rupe2 nye that one n only pair of footrest is for the pillain...haha! kental wanie! i think i prefer to ride bikes wif my bro...maybe coz ma bro bikes are smaller compare to ma BF GIGANTIC bike lar seh...wen ma bro speed, i feel the excitement...BUT! wen the BF speed, i feel fear!! haha...yest asked ma babe fanah whether she can take leave end dis mth or early nxt mth not...den she said that she's nt working on d 26 n 27...so i planned to meet up with ma babes n at last the hunk...since every1 was agreeable, so i made the meet up on the 26...so semangat already seh can meet dem up real soon..skali when i watch the new 9 pm chinese drama, i just remembered that 26 is CNY!!! confirm + chop + guarantee that i need to work...so i msg this to the babes...wanie: ehk korang! 26 cny lah! n its public holidae..tk leh ah...confirm aku kena keja.lia: hahaha u n ur slamberness. still havent change. mis u la.fanah: haha...ler...kau baru tau...lol...wanee: eh ya la.haha.nisah: ingt ko tau..fadh: den too bad wanie...other den dat im free on sat...SUPER SELENGE SAK DIS ANAK RAHIM!! haha...bingit skejap seh semlm...haha...so i will TRY to take off on a sat..most prolly on the 24th...so babes n the hunk, pray hard dat i can get the leave.... =))eehh...wait..i cant take off dis mth....WO MEI YOU QIAN LIAOX! haha...ma dis mth pay kinda nt much compare to previous mths...bt alhamdulilah i can pay all the necesary stuffs...bt i just cant spare any money for other things except for the last item this mth..which is a sandal...other than dat...no more liaox... =( bt nvm...i will try make it early feb...hhmm...k lar...dats all...bye people!!=WaNie=Labels: the BF...u have been greatly MISSED...
Monday, January 05, 2009
my Puteri NurBalqis started school last fridae...and i followed ibu to send her to school...and her school super darn far! and i wonder why they set up a school at such ulu place..confirm if u ask ard they will sae they dunno where the heck the place is!
and i almost cried when i see her in class...really! how fast she grew up and now she's already in school...and i was really angry at the teachers in her class...3 teachers and cant even see my little gal didnt get her food, didnt get her drink and didnt even get to get out from her chair!!! poor her...bt nvm i noe my gal is strong!
i know she's scared...dis is a new thing to her...and almost everyone ard her were crying...i know she's staying strong...that's good abt my gal...she's brave..bt at the same time she's holding back her tears and fears...
and todae is her 2nd dae in sch...bt crap! the transport weren't there to fetch her! wen ma mum reached the school, they found out that the transport was late may because due to getting lost! ma mum was swearing the driver for being lost and didnt recce the places he have to go and pick up the kids...kesian ma mum and balqis...she was so eager to go to school in transport den she was heartbroken! hhmmph!
first day of school... =) mcm Hajah! hehe
2nd dae of sch which is todae..like a pri sch kid..hehe
work has been hectic...and i was super tired yesterdae...really...the time travelled so slow yesterdae....and ma manager lost his anger at 2 crews...if i was the manager also i angry with them sia...and the uncles and aunty kena transferred..and i feel really2 sad...coz im too attached to these uncles and aunty... =( and i dun think the place will be the same without them... i really hope and pray that the manager will take them back... (bt i have negative feeling about my hope...haix..)
and im getting really fat! really really fat! i dun want to go for another slimming programme..sianx liaox...the tiredness is super tired..i rather go PE lessons then go for the slimming treatment....haha...after the treatment ends, i didnt control my diet dats y im getting fatter now! urgh!
wanna noe ma new resolution?? IM GOING TO STARVE MYSELF TILL IM THINNER! hhahaha...bet it dat it aint my resolution ok! tk maen all this resolution thingy! hhmph! bt i will try starve myself thou...hhmm....
my hp really sucks big time...it auto off most of the time...i switch on the phone den it off again on its own...the routine goes on n on...wat i do?? let it be lorhx...haha...cant be bothered...bt it just make my blood boil ar actually...hehe....
oh yar..3 daes straight from fri till yesterdae i have been bz..super bz...fri morning send balqis to sch...fri noon met the bf...fri evening went jp wif bro for his shopping..
sat suppose to meet bf bt it was cancelled den met bro for another shopping trip and he bought me body shop perfumes!! =D hehe...suke banget!
sun went jp AGAIN! wif mum and balqis to buy her art items and me to buy my laptop case...and the queue in popular was SUPER LONG! sianx....
dats all for my weekends..
sch has strated once again..trying to be rajin to go to class...biar badan kat dlm class, otak kat laen tkpe...janji present..haha....
ok lar...take care people...
to the BF, i MAY forgive but i DONT FORGET...
=WaNie=
Labels: a school gal once again...
