Thursday, November 27, 2008
went outing with the classmates earlier on..wanna noe wat happen??at woodlands mrt...me,zee,syuk n hafiz come 2gether oleadi...zee: aku laparwanie: aku pn.hafiz: kul brape? wanie: 8.50.hafiz: ehk...kalo kite jln lekas2 kite leh sempat msk class...kalo tk kite nifm je ar..syuk: aku anythingwanie: ehk yok ar...kite gi breakfast...nifm je ar...zee: ok ar...aku pn tgh lapar...so...we head to cwp..we still dunno wat to eat...kfc ke, ljs ke,mcd ke....in d end...mcd...haha...while eating...syaz came down....den discuss2...in d end.... DIDNT EVEN GO TO SCHOOL!! HAHAHAHA....cantek kape?? haha...we went down to suntec and marina square..we were there almost the whole dae...walk here and there..till our shoulders were crying for help...haha...super tired lar seh walk here and there with the ALMOST 5kg heavy bag pack...syaz bought a new phone...and hafiz n me also berangan of buying new phones..haha...and we went to dis one shop...the bear there quite sensored..haha...and yar! the cameras there are cheap and super cool!! mcm nk beli aje...haha...den we lepak at the steps of marina square...and there were few dogs and guess wat syaz sae??syaz: wanie, ni anjing kalo dtg kat aku, aku tk ingt kwn nye tau. aku tendang kau pastu aku lari dulu!wanie: -_-sort skejap seh...haha....bkn nk tarik aku skali tau lari...nie die ingt nk lari sendiri aje...parted with syuk...and left me,zee,fiz n syaz...dunno where to go...so we went to dunno lar d name..haha...and i tot of buying bracelet for each of us....syaz, zee was ok with d idea...bt only hafiz wanted a necklace! n yar! we bought ezlink stickers also..haha...we super menyusahkan org yg jual tu lar seh..aku dgn zee jgk senang...amek drk display nye! hhmmph! hah...and they planned for ubin trip...excited lar seh....tp tk leh excited sgt..nnti aleh2 tk jdk..haha...wen were seating down waiting for syaz to eat...we talked abt my BF....all about the restriction food and drinks...yes, i noe my BF is controlling my life...but love is blind...i love him dats y i follow..moreover, i noe he cares about my health, dats y d restriction...bt wat they sae are also true... "kau tk semestinya dpt cancer atau kidney failure becoz of d drinks n food u eat. benda laen pn boleh buat ko saket"...tu semua btl...bt i just want him to be happy...he will be happy wen i listen to him...so, dats wat im doing...listen to him....n guess wat?? tonyte there will be a conference!!! and im excited! haha....confirm plus chop jakun! ahaha...k lar...bye!!=WaNie=Labels: i dun love u as before...BUT...i love u MORE...
Monday, November 24, 2008
weekends as usual..WORK...there's a lot of new crews...and all are sec 2 students!!! budak2 nie semua agknye tk sabar nk pegang duit agknye..hha....trained a new boy crew..handsome...bt talk too much...hehe...bt okok ar...wen i went to d toilet i checked my hp...BF msg!! heeh...BF: keja nari?wanie: yup2...BF: nari nk jmpe i tk?wanie: u free ke?BF: a ah...nk tk?wanie: ok set! =)hahah!! i was over the moon lorhx wen he asked me the qn...ahaha...so after worked met him...and he got a tembel eye! he said due to looking at too much of people's buttocks...hahaha..we walked around IMM to look for balqis bdae present and for my dinner...den end up buying a punching bag together with the punching glove for balqis...ahaha....seriously i had fun meetin him up.. =)) with all the laughters and stupidity of both of us...haha...all the jokes...batman lar...lighter lar...penguin lar...haha...all that crap...hha...we laughed non stop... hehe....den home sweet home....the next dae which was sundae...went back at 1....coz bdae balqis and at the same time i have to accompany ibu to go for a wedding function at teban...ma ex pri schmate sister married...it has been ages since i last step my feet into teban....there were changes...and i looked like a tourist there sia..haha...and yar...i saw 3 ex schmates onli...bt i noe the rest of my ex schmates are still at teban....hidup mati teban! =D hehe...and todae...sch as usual...and guess wat?? nad came down to rp!!! weeee!!! hahaha....met her up during 2nd break...wen i saw her waiting for me at 1 stop centre...i already start to run towards her and hugged her!!! miss her lots man...and to my embarassement...syuk's capeoira fren was there sitting in front of us!! urgh! malu lar seh! haha..bt i cant stop suddenly lar ehk...anti climax seh kalo stop...haha...so i just act as if i didnt see him lorh...hahha...we had lunch and she stayed in my class till d end of lesson.. =)) after sch we went to lot 1...we didnt stop talking at all lar seh! the last time i saw her was went we graduate of ite lar seh...dat means 7 mths ago!!meet up soon again k nad! =))and BABES N HUNK, insyaAllah we meet up aurite..after fadh pop...dats all for todae...and BF has gone MIA...AGAIN....=WaNie=Labels: escape theme park mood...
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
my mood started out ok todae..den suddenly in the evening when its time to go home..suddenly my mood changes...serious sucks...i was like banging ma hp..shouting at ibu (which make me guilty after dat)...cursing ma bro...angry at BF...den i cried...i just feel so fcuked up...i dunno why...mayb its because of what im going through now...i was like feeling like half hearted to go home...nt often i feel dis way...just now i feel like asking peeps yg maseh dlm class dis.."ade sape2 nk lari drk rumah tk?"..haha..i noe its a stupid qn...bt dat was wat i feel earlier on..really....and earlier on was the slowest walking pace sia...super slow just now i walked...my legs felt so heavy to go home....in the train..ma features was like the most unfriendly person ever in the train...ma face was like tgh bingit giler baung....frowning and i will just jeling to whoever that looked at me....urgh!!! why am i so weak???? i want to be strong!!! God, please help me...please....=WaNie=Labels: the more u are away...the more i need u..I NEED U...
went to capoeira reflection yesterdae...one word i can say about SOME capoeira guys....CUTE!!!
=))p.s. not all okays! =WaNie=Labels: capoeira mood...
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
the meet-up with BF was a short one eventhough he said dat it will be a long dae... =( most of the time we spent our time at the workshop...sianx...after 1 hr or so at the workshop we walk off to tm for our dinner at seoul garden...after dinner we went off... =((so much for the long dae! hhmph!AND...AKU SUPER PANTANG PEOPLE USING MY STUFFS WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!! IT WILL JUST BLOW MY MOOD AWAY!!!first, it was ma sis...pakai make up aku tanpa izin smpai aku kena letak note kat make up bag aku...hhmmp! now its ma bro using ma hp without ma permission!!! aku tk psl die pakai hp aku...tp ape kes die kai smpai batt flat bte kempis nye siot! anytym before ma alarm goes off the hp can just innalilah siot! fed up babat nye!back to my story....and yes! on sat i was stalk by a PAKCIK who presume that he is an ABANG! yucks!! and i dont want to blog it here...coz aku dh penat brape byk kali aku repeat story nie...haha...and yar...NOW...I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED AND LAZY ALREADY TO ATTEND CLASSES...SERIOUSLY LAZY!! ma attendance in poly is WORST than my attendance in ITE...haha...i prefer ma attitude in ITE sia...its like tk perlu org pakse aku nk gi skola coz aku suke gi skola dulu...now not anymore...sianx man!! urgh! the peeps i have are GREAT...the facis are COOL...bt it just that my attitude SUCKS...damn! and now im wondering hw am i going to survive for another 2 yrs!! aahhh!!! every wk confirm plus chop i will be absent from class...haha...maybe meeting with nadz dis mon...and i cant wait!! coz i have not met her since...eemmm....march?? haha..yar...DAT LONG!now im already counting d daes i have to work during my vacations...there's a lot i have in mind...mane nk tlg mak aku...mane nk tlg diri aku sendiri...pikiran beb...sianx...and since i saw syuk's capoiera frends...asyik terserempak je dgn dorang...and when i was workin last sat, one of his friends bought food from BK...haha...and now i dunno wat else to blog...and last week i wore pink the same as syaz...and todae im wearing yellow the same as syuk! haha...nie semua tk berjanji ok...haha...=WaNie=Labels: celebrations mood...
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
im washing my hands off this relationship...
im tired...
i no longer have the strength to make it work...
u dun seem to realise my hardwork...
no use crying...
i will just make myself more tired...
bt thats wat i did...
cry....cry...and cry...
u dun see the tears...u dun see the hurt...
last nyte wen it all happened...
i cried like there's no tomorrow...
did u realise dat?....guess not...
balqis: busu, asl busu nangis nie?
wanie: tkde ape2 qis.
balqis: busu bedek. asal busu nangis?
she just made me cry more...
looking at her, i saw u...
looking at her, i remember our memories...sweet and happy memories...
now im suffering the pain...
super swollen eyes....
headache due to lack of sleep and too much crying...
the most painful part is...
the HEART...
ur wish is my command...
i will grant ur wish...
hope dat will make u happy...
wen u r happy i will try make myself happy for u...
i want WaNieaHmad back!!
im down...super duper down...i cant think of anything...bt only YOU...
u were so sweet yesterdae bt u turn into a hulk at nite...
and u blamed me for that...
my bedsheet is wet with my tears already and i dun wanna make it even wet...
i guess i will stop here...
too much emo-ing here will not do me any good... =(
=WaNie=
Labels: it is like an arrow piercing thru my heart..
Monday, November 10, 2008
i envy couples who hold hands...
i envy couples who laugh and smile at each other...
3 years have pass..and we are still together...
can u believe it, BF?
i just cant believe it...
the longest relationship ever...
the guy that i NEVER EVER wish to get together with,
happen to be my longest love...
and most probably my husband, InsyaAllah...
i dun want to be friend you just because
you are dark...
i want my companion to be fair skin....
bt God open my heart and put u in there...
i have to accept it coz i start to love you from
the 2nd meeting onwards...
3 yrs have passed...
and now u WARNED me that this is the 3rd yr...
the crucial yr...
i cried when you WARNED me...
i feel that u feel insecure...
fear that i will leave you...
but!
the fear im facing is deeper then yours, BF...
now im all alone...
fighting the war on my own...
u werent there for me....
we no longer have long long chats...
we no longer converse...
when i meet u up...i will always
pretend to be happy...
i fear to open myself coz
im scared...
scared whatever i do
wont please u...
BF, i have lost u...
bt u said it will only be temporary...
i hope so...
i really do...
i need u back...
so that i wont have to go thru
the war on my own...
BF, with u in my life...
there's light...
there's love...
i love u as much as i love
my God
my Prophet
my religion
my MUM & DAD...
i just wanna let u know that,
U ARE A BIG PART IN ME...
so, please..come back..
im lost...
=WaNie=
Labels: sorry for emo-ing...
it has been like 2 weeks since i last update my so called dying blog... =Dso...syuk, wat am i suppose to update about??ehk! serious shit lar ehk...i dunno wat to blog...haha!last week sch was as usual...tuesdae didnt turn up for class due to some unknown illness that i have..super painful...and i wasnt allow to see a doctor...ibu said that the doc will only give me panadols/painkillers...so she said y bother waste time and money on dat?? in the evening, went to central to buy ingredients for abg so called "5,6 kwn je dtg party"...later i will update abt dat...so, the next dae, went to school as usual...the class started out with quite a number of people bt after 2nd break...TAAAADDAAA!!! left only a quarter or so ...haha...such an astonishment...wakaka....straight away after class rush home...coz the so called "small party" will start after maghrib...bt people start coming during maghrib seh! so, wen i reached home..ape lgk wanie mcm budak tk mkn 3 hari 3 mlm serbu all the food...kononnye taster lar gituk..hhaha...the food was ok ar...so, abg's frend bought a bdae cake with his face on the cake...his bdae card also the front cover was his face...btl nye gah! bdae die dis yr...k yar...abt the "5,6 kwn je dtg party" turn out to be "20++ KWN DTG PARTY!!!"...my mum dh keliru...confuse ar...the food wasnt enough to feed all these hungry hyenas...so, aku jdk mangsa have to go down buy MORE food...and abg sae no need no need...dun care abt them...wahlau! super bad host sia he....super fed up sia with him...oh well...die kn KING dat dae...the people start to go off at 10++ 11 like dat...i was super ngantok and still have to cuci all the pinggan mangkuk and help clean up the house...after the washing and all..BF gave me a call...BF: elo...buat ape tu?wanie: baru abes cuci pinggan mangkuk...u?BF: cuci pinggan mangkuk? u? u cuci pinggan mangkuk??wanie: a ah lar...asl?BF: setahu i u tk buat tu semua kn?? hahaha...wanie: hey!!! saje jek ehk! org buat ok!!to the readers out there...i DO SOME housework ok! =pon thurs class was as usual...i thought i will be late for class that dae...bt one hamba Allah who confidently said dat he wont be late happened to be later than i am...hahaha!! was supposed to go chalet wif BF dat evening...bt wen he told me that his mum was also going...den i straight away sae i dun wanna go...i just feel awkward ard his mum..no one knows how i feel....nt even him. coz he doesnt choose to know the reasons y....then fridae...wah lau!! the pain in my abdomen really painful man! i tell u the pain was 3 hari 3 malam nye kes sia! since fri till last nyte...on sat didnt go to work...due to the pain...so BF came down and bought me a cake and painkillers...haha! sayang jugak die dgn aku.. =Dsun work was as usual...bt unusual part was only without uncle hanafi ard...sungguh laen rasenye...den...TODAY!!! haha...todae i feel guilty..TWICE...one happen in class (to those who realise it just keep it to urself) and one happen at the mrt station...saw a cousin...said hi to her and walked off...i saw she pulling her earphone...like mcm nk bbual siket2 gitu ar...bt i just walked off!! till now i feel guilty...how ehk??oh yar! went to sch and halfway suddenly it was pouring...and i tink it poured because i bumped into hafiz...haha....it happen twice todae..haha..one in the morning...the 2nd time during 2nd break..haha! btw fiz....the hairstyle is nice ok! and aku tk nk buat ape2 janji dgn ko! nnti aku yg kena tungu ko! u shld noe what i mean..haha...and oh yar! rj aku utk last fri mane?? haha...the class wanted to wear green 2molow...hopefully everyone do wear green... =D and dgn tanpa janji aku dgn syaz wear pink 2dae...eventhough the shades were different..haha...dats all for my daily entry.. =D=WaNie=
