Wednesday, October 29, 2008
y am i always being wronged??y am i always been looked as the one who make other people's kids gone astray??y am i always being blamed for the mistakes they made??y does everyone remember the mistakes i did bt forgot their own mistakes??y am i being looked as wild when other cousins would like to follow my footsteps??y does people think that im the bad person and other kids are angels??y does love hurts me lot??y must i fall in love??y do couples grow apart as time past by??y gals will feel it but guys doesnt??y cant i go out with cousins as many times as i want??y must there be barrier btw families??y must i cry when i miss him??y must i hold my pendant titely when i miss someone i love??y must my outlook counts when a person looks at me??y am i crying now while posting this entry??WHY?WHY??WHY???WHY????WHY?????Does anybody have the answers to my questions???im feeling super down eventhough i laugh with my FRIENDS earlier on...and im already missing them...=WaNie=Labels: i NEED a shoulder to cry on...there's too much tears to flush out....anyone?
im having my 1 wk break rite now...bt im still a bz GAL...ahahaks...worked from sat till mon...
the tiredness is ok...bt monday! wahlau! super tired...bt i was surprised that i can still serve my customers with a smiling face...till 4 pm ok i smile!
since the last 3 wks i had ma off...mcm2 cerita aku dgr....and there were new crews...many of the old crews were terminated...and im going to miss adah! man! wen i came back onli...ramai people tukar looks ar..my darling indian gf rebonded her hair...my darling team leader highlighted her hair...(shahidah, mentang2 tk skola naek lemak ehk! haha...) and the funniest one is..hahah!! one of ma guy frend there...he highlighted his hair super funny..i shall not post it here...haha...
and yar!! on mondae i short $20.70!!!! super a lot sia...seriously i dunno wat happen...sianx....so i have to recoup the short back...haiz...bt sales was super good...wen sales were good so little crew....when there wasnt any sales super many crew! ape aje bk ni lar...haha....
on mondae after work wen down to woodlands and head to my aunt's hse...(told ya even if im having ma break, i will still need to head down to woodlands...)...
her kuih tart super SEDAP!! and her mee bakso also super PEDAS!! so...super super SEDAP!!! people raya wear baju kurung and i wear bk uniform! hahaha!!! ma mum brought along ma blouse and she expect me to wear it wif ma beggy pants and track shoes!!! NO WAY!! so i just stick wif ma uniform..hehe...
den ard 9 plus only we berangkat hme...so ard 10 plus lorhx reach hme...
yesterdae, went out with cousin love...poor her..from netball training she straight meet me up and we did go to a few numbers of locations...and we walked from ct hall to sim lim!! haha...die lar yg ajar...haha....
we went to vivo,funan and sim lim to look for our headphones...and many of the places we went to tkde seh the headphones!! urgh! den we got it at sim lim...haha....
yar yar yar...i noe people have it long time ago bt we onli got it now..well...we dun care as long as we get wat we want eventhough its has been used my many people...
people who know me best will know which is mine..hahaks! siti's is the dark blue/green and its super nice as well...and the hijau rumput *as quoted by ali* is ali's....haha....
one dae we shld wear it together..hahaks...
yesterdae also met up with the long lost BF....long time didnt hear/see him....bt wen i met him last nyte, i dun feel a thing...he wanna hold me bt i let go...mayb because balqis was there? mayb because i miss him too much that i felt hurt dat he didnt realise it bt yet act as if nothing happening btw us? I DUNNO!!!!
it has been quite sometime i met him bt yet he still made me mad last nyte....he just wont understand me!!! and its because of money! yes! money is evil! urgh!
and till now he's mia again...im so tired! i dun wanna cry anymore...i dun wanna miss him anymore...i dun wanna think negatively as how he thinks abt me...i dun wanna tire myself anymore!!!! urgh!
and nw im also tired to type anymore... =)
and i wanted to try to post like how hafiz did in his blog....without any punctuation....bt i just cant! haha..i just need the .....
hahhaha!! k dats all...bye bloggers!
=WaNie=
Labels: i so want him back...where r u BF
Thursday, October 23, 2008
i think the most fun moments we have will always be thursdae...haha...not in class ehk...bt outside and after class...haha...had fun todae...play stupid games and there were more people joining us...haha....so many laughters....haha..funny moments man...i love my classmates!!! =DDand i dunno wat to blog....hahahahha...hafiz...u still owe me....!!! LOL!!!make sure ko balek ko hafal tu position ehk! haha....=WaNie=Labels: eventhough inside is bleeding...bt outside im having fun...such a paradox...haha
Monday, October 20, 2008
last weekend was the last weekend i will be free as next wk i will start to sell burgers once again... =( sianx..(how i wish my parents are damn rich like hilton's family..)so..saturday's plan was all cocked up(dats y i hate plans!)...cancel plan to go out with BF coz mum wanted to go JB with aunt bt d end she also cancel the outing..seriously irritating at that point of time..in the end i asked ma mum to accompany me buy mp3. wonder y i ask ma mum instead of other people??1. dun want to ask FRIENDS along coz its hard to make plans with them2. BF and i wasnt in gd terms3. was a last minute thing4. my mum was free anyways...=D i love my mum and im not embarassed to go out wif her ok! haha...and yes! i felt super like a secondary school gal...(i mean my secondary school zaman of coz....) my mum was the one who chose my shirt and pants. and i didnt even bother to see whether they match or not..so, i just wear...after wearing only i realise that i look like a kental sec 1 gal...like how kental i was during ma sec sch life...bt still i go out with that look..haha....coz i was comfortable in wat i was wearing...so y waste time changing just coz i look kental rite?so my saturday was spend with my mum and puteri nurbalqis...the stonehead...when i reach hme BF sms me abt the other raya outing that will be happening the nxt dae...BF: bsk kul 1030 at lah's hse..i pick u up at ard 9++wanie: huh?? siang nye!!!i was super shock ar at the timing...punye siang! tk btl agknye budak2 nie semua...in d end i said to him that i dun care...its either i dun follow at all or meet the rest at eunos at 12...haha...so he agreed at the latter one...haha...and to my surprise, many of BF moto frends are quite good looking... =DD haha...there were 8 bikes...and its my first time going raya with many bikes....like cool like that...haha...the uncool part was when we were caught in the rain...wakaka....there were mail,mat noh,hafiz,selamat,najib,abdullah,muhd....k d rest i cant remember the names but will always remember their faces... *big big smile*...haha....we went to around 8 to 9 houses...and guess wat?? we were dihidangkan makanan at every single house! super or super??? haha...at the 2nd last and last house our stomachs were all crying for help already...aha...there were nasi briyani, mee rebus, mee hoon hong kong, 2 houses serve us pizzas, fried macaroni, roti cecah curry, mee siam goreng, mee bandung, nasi ayam,roti john(nice roti john i can sae)...all the heavy duty food! imagine that...all houses we have to eat...penat i kunyah u noe! hahaha....and the next morning which is today..i had to let them go...bye food... =( haha....but at the same time it was crying for food also...haha..too bad hafiz wasnt in sch...kalo tk die lar org pertama aku msg nie...wanie: aku lapar + ngantok!!!hafiz: same!!hahaha...back to the raya outing...to my surprise..most of them solat.... =) alhamdulilah...its like....eventhough we are jalan-ing ari raya..they still put aside time to solat..lgk2 yg hensem2...hehe....yg nie part aku kena golong kan BF in the handsome category...ahaha...reach hme ard 12 gituk....and my parents didnt look me up...ma dad called just to ask me to buy his cigarette...tu je.... =Doh yar!! when at abdullah's house...BF mum came..i was like..."dak duk dak duk..."...scary pom pee pee sia...she came with their cousin...kak umi(BF cousin) : mane die? mane die? (i was like lost...ape yg mane die nie? ape yg die crk?)lah's dad: tu yg kai baju sepasang dgn ahmad...kak umi: oh.. *smiling*lah's dad: umi tdk tk dtg siang siket...boleh interview...kak umi: a ah lar...tdk dtg siang siket boleh interview ehk....tkpe2...bile2 nnti dtg rumah bole kak umi interview.aku mcm budak bodoh kat situ diri tercenggang mcm nk terkencing...senyum je all the way...hahaha...after wen out of lah's hse....muhd said dis to me...muhd: wanie, "phew" (make the wiping the sweat from the forehead action) kan? ahha..tau..wanie: a ah seh...seram sejuk kat dlm...haha...balek mandi terus bam!! tired seh...imagine 12 hrs of raya-ing....i was glad to see u smile at me...i was glad that u still love me...i was glad that u still want to hold my hand and lead me...i was glad that u still want me to hug u titely...i was glad that u still manja kan me...i was glad that....I STILL HAVE YOU...i miss my BF super badly and yesterdae was the day i let go of all the feeling...bt too bad... =( i cant see him often anymore...now he stays at the end of the island...and its hard to meet up... ='(since i noe him in 2005...he kept shifting houses...from hougang...to woodlands...to ang mo kio and now to pasir ris....in a few months time he will go back to square 1...hougang again...haiz...and i guess now is the hardest moment for us to meet up...Dear God, please make Singapore smaller... =D hehe...k...dats all for my LONG entry...=WaNie=Labels: record..my longest entry...hehe
Saturday, October 18, 2008
let me update the raya outing with CLASSMATES....went to sch for UT...serious shit...the only question i know how to do is the last question but yet wen i reach the question, "u left with 1 minute"...irritating shit!! i need more time to do the calculation sia..in the end..i didnt get to answer the question...during the 1st breakout..we all kecoh2 on went to leave the class...haha..in d end we got to hasut syaz to leave during 2nd break..haha! and yar! we managed to hasut all these keras kepala also at last!! wakakaka...powerful or wat?? =Dwe went our separate ways and meet up again at trcc...den the first stop was syaz house...semua buat mcm rumah sendiri...haha..paling aku super...bile hafiz bgn tdo...haha...u shld noe wat u did fiz..wakakaka....and syaz..the dunno wat kuih is N-I-C-E... berangkat to yishun for zee to change her outfit....lawar lar die dlm pakaian melayu!! =)after dat...my house...semua dh kelaparan gile babs nye...ape lgk semua bedal ar...xcept caliph cant finish the spaghetti...coz he cannot tahan spiciness...den i was also asked to change outfit..i wanted to wear red..bt the rest asked me to wear black together wif dem...so, my mum jdk mangsa...have to iron my outfit..hehewe leave our house at 650 and guess wat tym did we reach yishun back eventhough we drove...we reach at 840!!!! super shit...aku rase kalo naek mrt lgk siang seh smpai...haha...its all due to the massive jam ar at PIE...first tym siot see that kinda jam..hafiz: kite dh kat ne ar?wanie: maseh kat jurong...ard 15 - 20 mins later...caliph: kite kat ne nie?wanie: maseh kat jurong lerh...haha....penat seh sit in d car waiting for d jam to stop....at zee house,semua serbu potato chip die..haha....after zee house went to syuk house..den last house hafiz house..super style sia hafiz blk...got linkway to the carpark at the 3rd storey...and u guys have to really stop ur johnny whoosh game man! buat aku pening aje..haha..and guess wat??? SEMUA RUMAH KITE DISUMBATKAN DGN MAKANAN...haha...reach hme ard 145 like dat...den do RJ and wait till zee reach hme safely...the next dae which is fridae...ALL OF US WERE SUPER HUNGRY...haha..pagi2 dh bising psl kelaparan...especially...AKU! haha...k...dats how my raya outing wif dem was... =)sometimes i just detest the people around me...they just make things complicated just for the sake of their own happiness....these people are a bunch of super hypocrite people...and i hate to be involve in a plan...wanna noe y? there will always be cocked up...and it just makes me MAD! serious shit...like todae also...initial plan was to go out raya-ing wif BF and friends..bt i have to cancel it coz my mum wanted to go jb wif ma aunt....bt at the end, they also cancel their jb trip!! fed up or wat sia??? urgh!and i also hate to plan anything coz i will always dun get the full strength back...not just dat...some dun even bother to reply me back....hey! pls lar people...be responsible can?? at least reply me even if its a negative reply...get it?? but lia! im nt talking abt u tau...serious...im talking abt other people...people are getting further apart from me...ma dad dun even talk to me..and i also cant be bothered to talk to him as well...BF is also like in another country while im here...haha...ntah lar ehk...i dunno lar....i seriously cant be bothered with all these "so hard to please kinda people..."...hhmph!i will just move on with life as usual...coz i noe whatever i do is just a pain to their eyes..peduli! janji aku bahagia...to those who are planning outings...u get the people first den tell me d outcome aurite? thx...=WaNie=Labels: love is there...bt the person isnt...
Thursday, October 16, 2008
yesterdae was a super fcuked up dae! didnt go to school due to the super irritating toddler at home...seriously pissed off at her sia!mum and i wanted to go off and jalan2...den that irritating kid buat perangai and because of her...BRO AND DAD BLAMED ME!!! BLAMED ME!!! i didnt do anything wrong!!!now i dun even want to look at dad's face and guess wat he shouted at me? dad: "kau nie bertumpang kat rumah aku!!! bkn aku yg tumpang ko!!! skg ko kluar drk rumah aku!!!"because of her dat they manjakan i was being treated dis way....because of her stupid attitude...i was being thrown away...SUCH A FCUKED UP DAY!!BF also fought wif me because of her!!! urghh! i just wonder why i am so bad luck...really wonder why...i may be smiling outside but im crying my eyes dry up in me...=WaNie=Labels: i really need a shoulder to cry on...but there isnt any soul who can lend me their shoulder..
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
im in class rite now...and the weather is super COLD....and im wearing hafiz hoodies...his hoodie is super comfortable sia..haha...feel like just wearing it till i reach home..haha...i so want a hoodie!!! can i?? can i?? daddy,mummy...pls..pls.... =Dand yar...wanee asked me to accompany her to mustafa...im sowie babe...i cant cabot class 2molow...i so want to cabot...bt i just cant...i also want to go mustafa so much...bt i just i cant...sianx...actually dis post is just a random one..haha..=WaNie=Labels: i want a hoodie....
went for the interview and i cried upon the first qn...and i dunno why...i tot there will only be one interviewer skali 4 sia!!mcm nk terkencing aku kat situ....the interviewer also offered me a job..a BETTER job i guess...venue: JPpay: $5.50 per hr...better rite?? i noe...bt super long hrs...11 hrs...i told ma mum abt it...bt den she said its bad to leave bk just like that wen they are really need of crews...ma mum said i will be aniaya BK if i just leave...bt ma BF said im too baek hati...tink of others bt never think of myself...sianx...im confused rite now...haiz...after sch went to mak oteh's crib for cake baking session...bt i didnt get the chance to eat the cake coz the cake was still hot from the oven and cant cut it yet.... =(BF ONLY contact me at 7++...imagine the whole dae he didnt even contact me....at 7++ den only call..."ayang!!"...mcm tk bersalah gitu ehk! hhmmph!todae also didnt hear anything from him...kesian aku..wanee wanted to have a karaoke and sentosa session with FRIENDS...bt nt yet properly plan....and this post is totally random...i didnt even noe wat to put in...bye!=WaNie=Labels: i need a driving instructor and yes..i noe u r keeping something from me...pls do tell me...no secrets pls...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i am so envy with the people who went out raya-ing...super jealous!!! urgh!!i took off is meant for us the family,FRIENDS or anybody who knows me to go out visiting...bt none of it happens! super mad sia...earlier on bro's frends came...and till now we are still waiting for ma aunt's fam to reach here..i tink if we were to go to mustafa centre earlier on....we have already reach hme by now sia! urgh!!A-N-G-R-Y!!!on a lighter note...earlier on at the fund raising event, i was seated at the VIP area...how cool is that?? haha...i received courts credit card? something like dat...popular voucher and fish & co. voucher..and the fish & co. voucher is a super waste for me...coz it ain't halal.. =( how sad....earlier on disturb ma bf using ma mum's no. that he doesnt know...wanie: hey ahmad, nari ahmad keja?BF: yup.nape?wanie: takde. i nk ajak u dtg openhouse i.BF: ok. btw ni sape ehk?wanie: so boleh dtg lar nie?BF: after 10 den baru free...wanie: ok.so confirm lar nie ahmad dtg ehk...BF: wait2...nie sape ehk?wanie: u tk knl i ke? kalo tk knl asl lyn ehk?BF: no. mcm pernah nmpak tu bab reply.wanie: no. sape?BF: tk tau.eh dh lar...org bz ler...wanie: u nie, lyn i , tk tkt ur gf marah ke?BF: oh tkla die ok. pasal die yg buat keje2 ni semue.HAHAHA!! cute or cute?? haha....i like his last reply...hehe...he knows me well! haha...k now ma aunt have already arrived...i served them the drinks and now im here in front of my lappy! haha...i noe im rude for not seating there and talk to dem...hehek...tomorrow's schooling....hope tomorrow will be a great dae..hopefully... =)=WaNie=Labels: raya is once in a while bt i sense that people ard me are drifting apart..
im super duper shocked and happy at the moment...and its because of...
THIS!! YES THIS!!! HAHAHAHA!!!
after the test...i called ALMOST everyone i noe...haha....serious shit! it was unbelievable...i was super scared abt d test coz it was ma 3rd one...and im just super scared that im going to fail again...bt Alhamdulilah, thx to the Only One that makes me pass...and thx God there wasnt any qn abt the tyres..hahaks....
reach hme abt 2 plus...i was late because of...
YES!!! my provisional driving license!! woohoo!! i can now drive!!! k...i mean not totally legal of coz..haha...happy lar sgt2... =D
and now im so tk sabar to buy an MP3...to award myself... =) dats shows that im not totally dependent to people to buy me stuffs ok!!
but BF is super disagree in me buying any electrical stuffs...because of....my bro....yes...he doesnt want my electrical stuffs to spoil like how my bro spoils my PSP...
sort u noe think of all this...sianx...i wanted to buy ds lite and mp3...bt have to be very careful...
today suppose to go out wif the classmates...bt it was cancelled again...so i just wait till they really confirm...oh well...
no news from the FRIENDS...wonder why..another...oh well...
=)
k...dats all...my battery is dying on me....chow!
=WaNie=
Friday, October 10, 2008
k hafiz...i have already change my blogskin...make sure u read it often! haha... =Dthere's alot for me to blog...bt im just super lazy to blog... =D=WaNie=Labels: i have lost interest..
Monday, October 06, 2008
that's our raye outfit dis yr...dark green...and im super kerek with people who wear kain and jln kena terangkat angkat kain dorang...haha!!! mentang2 aku pakai sluar...haha...
k...first stop was ma house...and balqis super irritating...cry like hell and all...as if dats d first tym she met BF...urgh! bie...its ur eyeliner lar...dats y she cried...hahaha!
den he ate and all...den went off to his uteh house..k i feel super comfortable there...i prefer his aunt compare to his mum...no offend... =D
after dat waited for his bro to go to their's abg sedara open house....den guess wat?? the house was already empty wen we reached there...haha!
after that visit, he kept asking me to go to his house and his another aunty house...bt i strongly reject...super rejection sia....haha...thank god tomok's mum at home...so we went to his house...sit down and all...talk talk...den we want to go off already tau...dh amek helmet and bag and all....skali tomok and his mum came out from the kitchen with plates of noodles...HAHAHAH!!!
paiseh bte malu seh dat tym...haha....super malu nye tu...after dat mkn dgn senyap and lekas...hehe... =D
and yes..yesterdae was the 4th time i watched 4bia...dh naek hafal citer tu...haha...
after dat went back home...mcm nk melayang aku kat motor tu...super laju nye....seram kejap aku...
went home clean up and all..and the feeling of not coming to school is super strong! super duper strong! dats y even when i switch on ma alarm bt i put under my bed...so dat i wont hear the alarm goes off...haha! tp sayang nye subuh2 lgk rumah aku dh bising...ma mum switch on the radio super loud for her subuh syarahan..urgh! dats d y im in sch now..hehe... =D
dats all for dis post...take care bloggers...
=WaNie=
Labels: friends..pls do reply me
today's communication module is abt express urself...and the class was talking about people slashing their wrist...and im the one who said...wanie: dat is stupidity sia...and im saying myself stupid...yes..i noe im stupid...bt oh well...dat was d old me...wat ma faci said was true..these people do all this when they are subconscious...and yes i agreed wif her...last tym wen i did it... i didnt realise where i was...i did all that when i was in school and at home...why did i do all that?? oh...well...coz there were too much hatred in me last tym and i didnt noe what was the best way to get rid of the hatred...bt that all was in the past...now wanie is sensible and matured! haha...=WaNie=Labels: stupidity is still in me...
Friday, October 03, 2008
Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims in the world..hope u guys are together with ur love ones...
todae is already 3rd syawal...and wanee's bdae!! =D happy bdae babe! love ya!
lets update abt my syawal celebration dis yr...hhmm...
1st syawal..ma house was still havoc with all the things around the house...eventhough we stay awake till 4++ bt yet the house still in a mess the nxt morning..haha...so...morning syawal after the prayers we were still cleaning d house..hehe....and we left our house for nenek's house at 3++.....first time seh go out so late... went i reach nenek's house...most of my other relatives has gone to their in-laws..so there is just ma nenek, d maid and my uncle's family....den waited for cik nah to come down to nenek house...coz after dat we went to her house...
went my cousins at nenek's house wif me...i just keep quiet..i dunno y....i just dont feel the urge to talk to dem...really....ma cousins were the who talked to me...
ali: kak, poly ehk?
wanie: ah. (looking away)
ali: amcm? ok?
wanie: ah, ok ar.
den dats it! no more conversation....i tink im getting further away from my cousins...i wonder y...i didnt even take d iniative to talk to my gal cousin who i used to be close wit...i just prefer to stay away from people...bt i want to go visiting....super confuse kan? haha...oh well....
den yesterdae went to my paternal nenek's hse and kak linda's hse....
yesterdae went to sch half way through... =D bt i feel its wasted...wanna noe y??? I WENT OUT OF MY HSE AT 630!!! went hme ard 1 plus after the fund raising meeting..den end up went out dkt dgn maghrib....hot aje kan!!! aside from that...ma dad iron ma sis baju kurung bt yet she isnt going...and didnt iron my baju kurung bt yet im going! saket sungguh ati nie...mcm terus tk nk gi seh...bt yet still go... hehe....
at nenek's hse....i just sit down without even saying hello to my little gal cousin...mcm i feel like that i want to be alone rather...haha....ma uncle ask me questions and i just will answer with a one word answer...tp bile dh kluar umah die terus mulut ah ko mcm machine gun beb! haha...
went at nenek's house..watch tv3 berita...(aku tau dlm byk2 citer asl kena tgk berita)...haha...since ma uncle switch it to that channel...so watch lorhx...and i feel so sad...and i feel that i regret all the oppurtunity i have here in Singapore...in Msia even only 1st there's alot of sad stories..mane yg kena tembak...mane yg kena rompak....mcm2....haiz.... den at baghdad...muslim people were solat-ing aidilfitri...the yahudi bomb the mosque down...sianx or sianx rite...1st syawal beb! aku rase org2 nie semua tkde public holidae ar....raya pn nk keja! mepek betol!
den kat indon lak....kapal leh msk 50 org je tp org kapal tu punye tamak pegi angkot 100++ org! bodoh ke bodoh??? in d end all cannot go back balek kampung...poor thing rite...sianx....
i am super fortunate to be here in Singapore...around my family and love ones...Thanks Allah...
todae mayb going to mak oteh's crib...dunno who's going as well...i will just follow d flow since i wanna b a loner dis aidilfitri....
hhmm...my relationship is okok onli....not much communication like before....i feel like there's a barrier btw us rite now...bt i noe i still love him... =)
these are just random pics i wanna put..ahaha...eemm...dats all i guess...
Selamat Hari Raya once again!!!
=WaNie=
Labels: to continue or to just leave it hanging...
