Friday, April 18, 2008
i go to school for the sake of going...nothing much...no excitement at all...when i was in ITE, i enjoyed going to school because of the existence of FRIENDS...even when i felt lazy to go to school, i still go..why? because i want to spend time at school with my FRIENDS...in RP? dread going to school...not understanding the modules...childish peeps...arrogant peeps....all those peeps that i just cant stand...long hours in school...everyday same timing...SO DREADING IT!im feeling helpless, useless, hopeless...im feeling that i've made the wrong move...im feeling that i am wasting my time and effort...im feeling that im standing alone on this big battlefield...i feel that i want give up...but i cant...why? because im living in the dream of my ONE & ONLY mother...i did not want to share what i felt with her because i know that she will be disappointed...i just want to be alone right now...no interruption at all please...im frustrated...but i just do not know where to throw this hurtful feeling...to those reading my blog, i may be frustrated at you..YES! YOU!to those not reading my blog, i may be frustrated at you as well...BUT! i do not what im frustrated about...many things happen at one point...no one tried to understand me....yes i noe they could not understand me because i did not open up and tell them what im going through...to me, no use telling when in the end, i will be point as the one "who thinks too much", "the self-centred"...i just want to keep it in my heart...because even when i share what i felt, it will result in hurting myself also....back to square one i can say....right now, i will just keep it in myself until one moment that i will just blow it all out...so...BE PREPARED...=WaNie=Labels: keep mum is better rather than telling...
