Sunday, August 24, 2008
i am so sick and tired of blogging already...but it has been 2 yrs since i started blogging...i still want dis blog of mine to stay alive...bt im very lazy to blog lar sometimes...haha...there's SO MUCH anger in me...im angry at TOO MANY people at ONE TIME...and at this point of time..i do OWN a lot of gadgets...bt where are they?? NONE of them are wif me...BT! these people who took ma gadgets scold me for keep asking for ma gadgets back...WAT D F!!! and i still wonder why people out there are so ignorant and irresponsible?? they made the mistakes but blame others for their mistakes...and i also still wonder why these people have to be a part of my life...important people in my life somemore! linked by blood...linked by love and linked by friendship...fasting is just around the corner...and im scared to face it...y? coz im scared dat i will be fasting in vain...work has been tremendously tired...bt i have to presevere..because im not a rich man's kiddo...i aint get anything i want with just asking ma parents for the things...and i cant just wake up in the morning and sae dis..."ayah,ibu..duit...nk kluar."...since 3 yrs ago...i have been working hard to support myself and sometimes help ma parents...do i envy those kids that can easily get money from their parents like my cousins? sometimes...bt most of the time i tink they just make their parents headaches...i tink with all the scenarios ive seen in my life..ive grown to be more mature and try to improve on myself rather then troubling ma poor parents...y i said so? because last tym my family was quite affordable in buying stuffs...i can just easily sae.."ayah, adk nk tu...ayah, adk nk nie.."..and at that moment too my dad will buy the stuff i want...pampered werent i? ma elder siblings were more pampered...they do not have to work when they were schooling just to support themselves...bt its a different story for me..i worked hard in school..i worked hard outside of school..i worked hard to please my parents..bt does my family see all that?? i dun tink so...because...im being labelled as an arrogant by my brother just because i got higher qualification den him and sis...so, why did i work so hard?? i will just be labelled even worst wen i get ma diploma rite?? sometimes i just hate to work hard...it doesnt pay to work hard...really...if im really arrogant...i wont work at bk wich only pays me peanut! if im arrogant...i wont lend my gadgets to ma elder siblings!...if im really arrogant...i wont teach balqis the right ways eventhough she prefers to do the wrong things!...if im really arrogant...i wont be walking ard jp or even any malls with my parents who are old fashion!...if im really arrogant...i will dump my ITE friends! DO I DO ALL THESE???? NO!!!i do not know whether its jealousy or irritation dat makes them labelled me dat way...with the way they think of me..it just makes me stronger...i hope...."memaafkn seseorg itu lebih mulia daripada membalas dendam..."...saw this in a drama last nyte...i just its rite...bt can i do dat after ive been wrongly accused?? i will just let my prayers be answered then... =)yes..i noe my post is random...and i have always been blogging wif different things in one post..haha...everytym i blogged...i let my feelings do the work... =Dtill here then...=WaNie=Labels: thinking about others just make me sick and tired...
